SAN DIEGO , USA

Hey Santosh,

You are one of the rare kids I knew whose whole family was on the Ranch. I already knew Shanti B when I first met the little-boy-you with your big round eyes! Ah, so this is Riten's son, and Aruna's brother. When you guys came together it was easy to see the love and affection flowing. 
You seemed to have a quieter nature than either of your more boisterous parents. More of the natural born observer. I appreciated your sweetness, sense of humor, and that 'standing on the sidelines, smiling eyes' thing that you have...

Life and death. They can bring out the most amazing depths of love in us, as is evidenced in the words of some of those most intimate to you.

I haven't seen Aruna or Shanti B in years, but I feel their love and grace with you from here.

Much love, (Curly) Sheela

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BYRON, AUSTRALIA

Beloved  Santosh... Peter...  my friend,

Thank you for your grace and wit and humour..... for those walks on the beach when
I felt the depth and sincerity of  your soul.  Thank you for your courage and determination,
in  just keeping on showing up for the next step.  Thank you for the love and connection you inspired,
and for the gift of your extraordinary partner, Jennifer  and beautiful children, Chloe and Dylan.

Two wise innocents... you and Riten nestle in my heart.  

so much love

alima

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BAY AREA , USA

Dear Santosh,

It's been difficult for me to comprehend all that has happened as Byron Bay
is thousands of miles away and the last time I saw you, you seemed more
alive than ever. You are one of many people who I assumed would always be
in my life. I took for granted all the fun trips in the Saab, camping, canoeing the Russian river. I have learned a lot from you and Jennifer over the last 2 years and I hope I can meet my time or my loved ones' last days with similar honesty, courage, and love. Thank you for always being real,
for your soul, your eyes.

Prem

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INDIA

Thanks for always keeping me in touch, it feels very strange to have lost two of our freinds from the ranch times, Disha and Santosh, so many memories, I feel sad, there are no words,
Thanks to you for always sending emails and keeping us all connected,
How are you and Turiya,
Much love to you both

With all my tears and gratitude
Priya

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ENGLAND

Thanks for the message and photo of "dodger", which is the name I
still relate to Santosh/Peter. I don't know his kids or Jennifer as we didn't interact much since I left the U.S, at the end of the 90's.
If you'd be kind enough to pass on my condolences to her that would
be great- During the time Dodge, Chandradeva , Parmita and I lived together in San Anselmo we were very close and shared many wonderful and hilarious
times.

I loved him then and love him now and he lives on in my heart and
mind.

Prageet

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AUSTRALIA, USA

Santosh

Thank you for always bring a smile to this world. When ever I did see you,you always had a smile and brought lots of laughs.
Thank you for being.
You will be missed and remember.
Love to you and you sweet family.

Kisses Tarang xx

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GERMANY

Santosh

You will remain in my heart as solid flame of love for
rest of my time on this beloved mad earth. Blessed is
your sense of humor and the wit you possessed. And
yes, not forget my A1 Mac Guru will be missed like a
laptop needs a battery. May you circuit rest now (at
least for bit).

Love also to all who loved Mr Lalor.

Peace Satish

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AUSTRALIA

Beloved,

I look into your eyes and I smile...  and cry.  You've given so much.  In these last few years you've been my teacher. One of the greatest gifts of my life was being with you Santosh.  I will forever hold you in my heart.

I can still hear you call out my name like a yodel, only way off key (smiles).  You really knew how to make me laugh Santosh.  Thank you for many wild stories and silent moments.

Your friend, Rupda.

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INDIANA, USA

Dear Jane,

I received the email from Rupta with the news of the recent
passing of dear Santosh.

I sit here and can see a young Santosh in his top level space in the kids hut in Koreagon Park engrossed with his assorted Lego. He was 'there', and he was also elsewhere at the same time.

A kind and gentle child is how I always have seen your beautiful boy.

I am so sorry for your loss. We mothers have a hard time letting go of the men we have birthed ... no matter when or how they decide to exit this world.

Here is a warm hearted hug, a refuge for a moment for you and in time, a giggle for you to savor as you look out upon this madcap
adventure we call "life".

Blessings and Love,

Ma Anand Jagruti aka Bonnie

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USA

Beloveds,

I am so sorry to hear about Santosh leaving his body. I read an article in the Viha magazine (I think) about a year and a half ago where he wrote about his recovery from having a brain tumor. I assume the brain tumor is why he left his body.

I feel that the children who spent part of their lives growing up in the Oregon Buddhafield, went through a very rare and special window, available for a short time, into being "the new man". These beings are of immense value to themselves and to the evolution of human consciousness.

Although I was not personally close to him, I shall miss his presence on this beautiful blue-green planet, and I send much love from my heart to his family.

Love, Waduda

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LONDON, UK

With so many Poona one memories and a few from the ranch, it was soooo good to see you again in 2000, Dodger. I will miss you until we meet again, somewhere... wherever that may be! Until then my blessings are with you my friend. My thoughts are also with you and the kids, Jennifer. It was great to meet you at the reunion in 2000. I wish you all the strength, resilience and love, you must surely be needing at this time. Big love to all our friends who have moved on!

(Prem) Mike xxx

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SAN FRANCISCO, USA

Santosh . . . . may your spirit rise in joy and beauty celebrating to be free of a body that was causing too much pain.ÊI wish you a wonderful journey into the unknown may your angels and spirit guides protect you and lead you on this next step of your path. May you be surrounded by love and light and know that all is well.


Jennifer . . . we don't know each other that well, but my heart goes out to you. You have been such an incredible support to Santosh while being a mother of two young children. The strength that you have shown needs to continue on now that you have to raise your children without their father. Again my heart goes out to you because I'm sure that at times all of this must be hard and overwhelming and yet your two precious little beings will keep you going in times that the sadness might be very strong. Being a mother myself now I deeply respect every woman who is on this path of raising children ( I respected woman before I was a mother too, but it just makes it more personal since I have a little guy to take care of every day), and not having your partner to do it with takes super powers at times! I do hope that you have a lot of support and send you my best wishes and love . . . .

Cloe and Dylan,

you may not even quite understand what has happened to your Dad, but one thing is for sure he loved and still loves you very much. Love is stronger than anything and even though he is not here in his body to play with you anymore he is with you in spirit and will always love you.

Love and light,

Sudha and baby Zane . . .

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TUCSON, ARIZONA

Beloved Jennifer,

I think about Santosh and you and your children everyday.

He has always held such a special place in my heart. Watching him at the Ranch, seeing him in different places afterwards; he always made me laugh. He seemed like such an 'old soul'. Even as a teen-ager we would have wonderful conversations. He reminded me of my own son, with his intelligence, wit and lovingness.

During these last 2 years as you and Santosh have written to let us know what was happening, I have been so touched, inspired and 'blown away' by the depth and clarity, but most of all by the Love you have for eachother, your children and Life itself.

You both have left a profound feeling and awareness in me and I know the same is true for all you have both touched.

Thank you for sharing your journey and your love.

Santosh will forever be in my heart.

All my love to you and your family,

Kailash

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SAN FRANCISCO, USA

May the Great Spirit guide him home,
And that he may laugh and sing on his journey there,
to the place where his ancestors await him.

Radha

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BAY AREA, USA

EARTH, OUTER RIM, MILKY WAY
dodge? giggle the light fantastic until we laugh together again.
man i love you brother mine. fuck me, life is short, isn't it?
guess we'll embrace soon enough. good ride though, hey? :-)

and love to all my tribe. every time i pick a card for death it is, without fail, commune. i like that. puts a warm smile in me. as my man teesh once said: "i've seen you in the light and i'll see you in the light again."

pramada

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SLIGO, IRELAND

I didnt know santosh, only through the network and stories so I feel like I've known him for years but never met.
The celebration photos are beautiful and I just want to pass on my love to Jennifer and their kids, I know how it is to grow up and not know ones dad. Also to Aruna. To all of you, Santosh is now an angel with the others in a place that we can only guess about but know deep down that its a beautiful place.

so much love to you all

Amy, Mudita