Beloved Friends of Disha

I have been reading so many incredible messages going around from all over the world. Disha is so loved by so many. To me Disha so much embodied the meaning of love and grace. There is so much sadness and it seems so untimely what has happen to Disha. And then again in the spirit of the Divine and far more then any of us might ever understand. I imagine Disha might just be having a great time wherever she is.

I have been feeling for a few days that I would like to write down what happened just so everyone that was not here and was not able to speak to someone directly, maybe gets some clarification and understanding of the events that led up to Friday afternoon. I spoke
to Nandan today and she really wanted me to send it. Everybody in Samasati has been receiving so many phone calls. I am sorry I have not been able to send this before but as you can imagine it has been quiet a few days up here.

For me it all started when I went to Disha's and Bhakta's house. Together with Bhakta, Adri and Shanasa we tried to help her by doing CPR and stayed with her for a lot of the time until Friday when the machines that kept her alive, were switched off. We tried as much as we could to give support to Bhakta and help with any practical things that needed to be taken care off. Bhakta has been incredible through the last few days. Focusing his being and love on Disha.

Around 5:30 am on Thursday morning, Shanasa and me received a phone call from Bhakta asking for help with Disha. He said that Disha was in trouble and needed our help. We went over to their house immediately. Adri was already there, having been called before us
and was trying to help Disha by giving her air. I realised immediately that Disha was not breathing and had no pulse.  I also did not feel any heartbeat. Her pupils appeared fully dilated. She was already laying in a good position for CPR, which we started immediately. I started compression's and Adri did the breathing part.  Bhakta was holding her feet , talking to her asking her to please come back to us.  He was really amazing with it all and so incredibly present with her and very focused.  When Shanasa came into the room I directed him to do the compression's and I called 000.  Daisy already had previously called the ambulance, they were on the way. I wanted a doctor on the phone to assist us with CPR and anything else what needed to happen. Just to make sure that we are doing it the right way. I also knew that once we started with CPR we had to keep going until the Ambulance arrived as required by Australian Law.

A  female doctor came to the phone and I stayed connected with her until the Ambulance arrived. I monitored the CPR with the help of the doctor on the phone while Adri and Shanasa were busy doing the actual CPR. On some point Bhakta took over from Shanasa while Adri made sure that Disha got air into her lungs.

Because of where we live it took the Ambulance 35-40 minutes to arrive.  During that time Disha never regained consciousness, nor did she breath on her own. I also was not able to feel any heartbeat or pulse. When the paramedics arrived they took over. They attached
her to a heart and blood pressure monitor, It looked like there was no heartbeat. Adri confirmed that later as he had asked the paramedics about that. Eventually there were six paramedics busy with her. After about 30 minutes they moved her into an Ambulance to
bring her 1 km further to the helicopter. Then they flew her to Lismore Base Hospital.

I am not totally sure what happened previously and what were the exact events that lead up to Disha's collapse. It is maybe better to let Bhakta give you the exact account of that. What I do understand from speaking to Bhakta is that Disha got very sick on Wednesday
sometimes around late afternoon. Because Disha was pregnant they were concerned and searched the Net to learn some information in regard to ectopic pregnancies and the associated symptoms to that. On some point they decided to go to the Mullumbimby local hospital (Emergency).

Bhakta said they told the doctor that she was pregnant and that they had some concerns. I understand from talking to Bhakta that no ultrasound was done at any time nor was it ever suggested. She was diagnosed with stomach gastritis. They kept Disha in the hospital
for about 3 hours for observation, gave her some medication for her discomfort and pain. Then they send them home. Disha and Bhakta arrived home sometimes before midnight.

I am not sure of any time frame from what followed but it seems that sometimes between midnight and early morning, Disha's condition started to get worse. She felt more pain, and experienced moments of dizziness and started to vomit. Bhakta called the hospital twice during the night. In both instances he spoke to a different nurse which assured him that she is fine and it was the medication and her low blood pressure due to her pregnancy that was making her drowsy and ill.  I believe that Bhakta again stressed his concern about her pregnancy and that something might be wrong. They never suggested that she should come back into the hospital.

I feel whatever was happening to Disha on some point must have taken a turn for the worst and very fast. Bhakta then called Adri, Shanasa and me for help.

After Disha was taken to the Hospital. Bhakta, Amira, Shanasa and me followed by car.  Lismore is one hour away from where we live. The drive there was intense. I was wondering how Disha is doing, wondering if she had woken up maybe, if she had maybe died. I was scared really and not really sure how to take in what just had happened.

When we arrived at the hospital we were taken into a room where an emergency nurse came to see us. She asked Bhakta what had happened. Bhakta explained about going to the hospital, the phone calls. On some point he mentioned the reversal of sterilization. On this point the nurse went to see the doctors and told them and they immediately rushed her to the operating room to check her out for an ectopic pregnancy.

About 30 minutes later the doctor that operated on her came to see us and explained her current condition to us. Disha did have an ectopic pregnancy which had broken and she had bled into her tummy about 3 litres of blood. This had caused her blood pressure to drop significantly. They believe that she has had a cardiac arrest at home due to her blood pressure drop and that she had stopped breathing at home. They told us that "she is very, very ill and they don't believe that this will have a positive outcome" however at that point she was stable. Her heart was beating, although not on her own. For the moment Disha was on life supportive machines keeping her alive.

They brought us up to another room near the ICU where Disha was going to be. Around 11:30 am, Disha was moved into the ICU. Sometimes after that her doctor and a medical team did some more tests on her to decide on her current condition. Then they came to talk to us. I feel that Disha had an incredible medical team around her that really cared
for her not just in a medical sense. They were beautiful with her and with us. They really gave us as much space as we wanted to be with her, which I found amazing, given how many people were at the hospital wanting to sit with her. And also given that she was in ICU around other people that were very sick.

When the doctors came to talk with us that is the news that we got. They told us that Disha is very ill. That she is on a life supportive machine that is keeping her alive. That her heart is beating, but her blood pressure is very low and they are not able to get it stronger at this point. That she is been given lots of medications to keep her heart beating , and she was also receiving lots of blood. They said, that there is a problem with her blood, it
was not clotting at all. They told us that her eyes are fully dilated as they are when a person has died or the person's brain has died. Her kidneys have failed. Her liver is not doing very good.  He gave her very little chance of recovery. He said they were worried
about her brain, they believed that it had died. However he also said that there is the miracle factor and because she is so young they need to take this in consideration. We were all praying for that miracle.

A few of us were in the hospital. We took turns in sitting by her bed side, praying with her, loving her, talking with her. Sitting in silence with her.

Sometimes in the afternoon, there was some news that she had tested positive for a brown snake bite. This was later ruled out again. The doctors explained that in some cases, very ill people that have a lot of medications put into their bodies, snake serum tests can come back positive. By yesterday he completely confirmed that he does not
believe that any snake bite was ever involved.

On Thursday evening the doctors called us again into a room that was made available to us. He said that she had not gotten any better. That her organs are breaking down. Her blood pressure remains weak. He explained that they had done some further tests on her brain, that there was no change, her eyes were still fully dilated. He also explained that they are pumping a lot of blood into her, that her blood is still not clotting. He also confirmed another ultra sound. He said she was loosing blood again into her belly.  He said that in her condition it was impossible to perform another operation and he concluded that Disha probably will not make it through the night.

After that we continued to take turns in visiting her. I went home at that point to get some rest which was not easy. Some other people arrived at the hospital and stayed through the night. The next morning I received a phone call from Sagarpriya. She told me that Disha's condition is unchanged. 1/2 hour later , Shanasa received a phone call, saying that Disha is getting worse. Shanasa and me went back to the hospital.

It was Friday and many friends came to the hospital. The hospital hall was full of people. Around 12 pm. Two doctors and a nurse came into the room and called everybody in. I really liked the doctor. I felt the team that was caring for Disha medically in the Lismore
Base Hospital, were the best she could have hoped for. The Doctor explained to us what is happening.

He said, that Disha has gotten worse. He explained that through the night her liver had failed. Her Kidneys failed. He said that they had done further test on the brain. He explained that they can do reflex tests to see if there was any life in the brain. He explained that Disha's brain is dead and that the stem cells are also dead. He said that her body is deteriorating fast now.

He confirmed that there is nothing that can be done for Disha anymore and he suggested that it would be best to take her off life support. He explain again the medical events that led up to this moment and he concluded that Disha had died at home before she came
to the hospital. With that, he explained that in Australia the law is that a person is dead when the brain is dead. He added that he believes that not only as a medical professional but also spiritually.

He shared that often people feel that someone is still alive when they see the heart beating and air going into a body raising the chest up an down. He explain that the emotions and feelings  come from the brain and when Disha's brain died, he believes that is when she left her body and that she is now in a higher place.  

He said that it is very clear to him and his medical team why she died. He explained that she had an ectopic pregnancy that broke and made her loose a lot of blood into her tummy. That led to a very low blood pressure, leading to a cardiac arrest where she stopped breathing. He said he believes that happened at her home in the early hours on Thursday and she arrived at the Lismore Hospital essentially already died. They kept her body alive artificially in the hope that maybe Disha will come back, although that possibility was very slim from the start. However given her age they felt they had to give Disha the best possible chance there is. He said he was very sorry and that he can see how much she is loved. I told him that she was a very special women, to which he responded, I can see that, I just have to look around and see her in you.

At that point Bhakta ask him if he is absolutely sure that she is gone and that her brain is dead and nothing can be done for her anymore. The doctor said , yes I am is sure. Bhakta decided then that she should be taken off life support as soon as possible.

Sometimes around 3:30 pm Bhakta called in all the people from Samasati and some friends to stand next to her bed. I am sure how many people but maybe 30. We hummed for about 10 minutes and send her lots of love and prayers. After 10 minutes Bhakta asked everyone to go out. Just a few of us stayed behind. The nurse came and switched off the life support machines. She asked Bhakta if he would like the tubes to be removed. He said yes. The nurse was really sweet, she talked to Disha and said that she will take the tubes out and that it will be a little bit uncomfortable but she would feel better after wards.

Disha took the last breath out. It was amazing to see her eyes slowly opening , halfway. They stayed open for a while and then slowly at some point closed again.

Disha was taken off life support at 3:50 pm on Friday the 9th of September.

I realise that reading this events might bring up many different feelings around the experience Disha might have had been hooked up to those machines, been worked on by doctors. Her body took a beating there is no doubt about it. I would love to share something about this. I am aware that everyone's experience is different from mine and everyone feelings are different. My feeling was that at no time while Disha was in the hospital did I ever feel her there, for me it was clearly just her body, her beautiful body and host to her beautiful spirit. I also did not feel her in her body anymore when I
arrived Thursday morning in her house to help her. It was as clear to me as it can be with the limited understanding I might have about what happens to us when we die. I did feel her however very strongly in the room. I felt her passing in my back. I felt her as a light,
sparkling. I did not experience her in any pain or fear.

On some point during the time when we were all in the room. Disha lying on the floor, Bhakta holding her feet, 6 paramedics frantically working on her. Shanasa, Avikal, Amira and Adri, just there. And me, being practical on the phone. At some point I was looking over to what was happening and it was almost as if I was watching a scene on TV and the sound was turned off. I experienced a deep silence and peace. Later Adri shared with us that he had the same experience.

I don't know anything about all of this. I can only go by what I was feeling, and I also realise that it might just be my mind and desire to want to make it all better. But I truly believe that Disha died at home which she treasured, next to Bhakta whom she loved deeply, with her baby inside that she wanted so much and Yamuna her little puppy laying next to her.  

A dear friend is gone. I will miss her, I will cry for her, but I will dance, laugh and sparkle for her. From the moment I met her many years ago when she was only 9 years old to this moment. Disha, to me, you are the embodiment of the meaning of love and spirit. To
me your heart was a place of prayer. My beloved Disha, goodbye............my gorgeous, wild and so gentle, juicy, graceful, spirited loving, funny, most beautiful most beloved friend. I am grateful to have spend this crazy and wonderful life with you. I love you now and forever.

Disha's body will have to undergo an autopsy as there is an investigation on the way for Criminal Medical Negligence. This was put into motion probably by the Lismore Hospital.

Hi Rupda... wow, I don't know what to say... I hope you are doing OK and thanks so much for putting up the site for Disha, it's wonderful. I just had a call ...to contact you, hopefully before you get on the plane (great you're coming...) .... if it is possible for you to mention on the site that any messages/emails sent will be printed off and put in the coffin with Disha's body (not read out), to be burnt with her when she goes, and that everyone is really encouraged to send those messages soon. Thanks Rupda, see you when you're here... much love, Gatya

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I have been reading so many incredible messages going around from all over the world. Disha is so loved by so many. To me Disha so much embodied the meaning of love and grace. There is so much sadness and it seems so untimely what has happen to Disha. And then again in the spirit of the Divine and far more then any of us might ever understand. I imagine Disha might just be having a great time wherever she is.

I have been feeling for a few days that I would like to write down what happened just so everyone that was not here and was not able to speak to someone directly, maybe gets some clarification and understanding of the events that led up to Friday afternoon. I spoke to Nandan today and she really wanted me to send it. Everybody in Samasati has been receiving so many phone calls. I am sorry I have not been able to send this before but as you can imagine it has been quiet a few days up here.

For me it all started when I went to Disha’s and Bhakta’s house. Together with Bhakta, Adri and Shanasa we tried to help her by doing CPR and stayed with her for a lot of the time until Friday when the machines that kept her alive, were switched off. We tried as much as we could to give support to Bhakta and help with any practical things that needed to be taken care off. Bhakta has been incredible through the last few days. Focusing his being and love on Disha.

Around 5:30 am on Thursday morning, Shanasa and me received a phone call from Bhakta asking for help with Disha. He said that Disha was in trouble and needed our help. We went over to their house immediately. Adri was already there, having been called before us and was trying to help Disha by giving her air. I realised immediately that Disha was not breathing and had no pulse.  I also did not feel any heartbeat. Her pupils appeared fully dilated. She was already laying in a good position for CPR, which we started immediately.  I started compression's and Adri did the breathing part.  Bhakta was holding her feet , talking to her asking her to please come back to us.  He was really amazing with it all and so incredibly present with her and very focused.  When Shanasa came into the room I directed him to do the compression's and I called 000.  Daisy already had previously called the ambulance, they were on the way. I wanted a doctor on the phone to assist us with CPR and anything else what needed to happen. Just to make sure that we are doing it the right way. I also knew that once we started with CPR we had to keep going until the Ambulance arrived as required by Australian Law.

A  female doctor came to the phone and I stayed connected with her until the Ambulance arrived. I monitored the CPR with the help of the doctor on the phone while Adri and Shanasa were busy doing the actual CPR. On some point Bhakta took over from Shanasa while Adri made sure that Disha got air into her lungs.

Because of where we live it took the Ambulance 35-40 minutes to arrive.  During that time Disha never regained consciousness, nor did she breath on her own. I also was not able to feel any heartbeat or pulse. When the paramedics arrived they took over. They attached her to a heart and blood pressure monitor, It looked like there was no heartbeat. Adri confirmed that later as he had asked the paramedics about that. Eventually there were six paramedics busy with her. After about 30 minutes they moved her into an Ambulance to bring her 1 km further to the helicopter. Then they flew her to Lismore Base Hospital.

I am not totally sure what happened previously and what were the exact events that lead up to Disha's collapse. It is maybe better to let Bhakta give you the exact account of that. What I do understand from speaking to Bhakta is that Disha got very sick on Wednesday sometimes around late afternoon. Because Disha was pregnant they were concerned and searched the Net to learn some information in regard to ectopic pregnancies and the associated symptoms to that. On some point they decided to go to the Mullumbimby local hospital ( Emergency).

Bhakta said they told the doctor that she was pregnant and that they had some concerns. I understand from talking to Bhakta that no ultrasound was done at any time nor was it ever suggested. She was diagnosed with stomach gastritis. They kept Disha in the hospital for about 3 hours for observation, gave her some medication for her discomfort and pain. Then they send them home. Disha and Bhakta arrived home sometimes before midnight.

I am not sure of any time frame from what followed but it seems that sometimes between midnight and early morning, Disha’s condition started to get worse. She felt more pain, and experienced moments of dizziness and started to vomit. Bhakta called the hospital twice during the night. In both instances he spoke to a different nurse which assured him that she is fine and it was the medication and her low blood pressure due to her pregnancy that was making her drowsy and ill.  I believe that Bhakta again stressed his concern about her pregnancy and that something might be wrong. They never suggested that she should come back into the hospital.

I feel whatever was happening to Disha on some point must have taken a turn for the worst and very fast. Bhakta then called Adri, Shanasa and me for help.

After Disha was taken to the Hospital. Bhakta, Amira, Shanasa and me followed by car.  Lismore is one hour away from where we live. The drive there was intense. I was wondering how Disha is doing, wondering if she had woken up maybe, if she had maybe died. I was scared really and not really sure how to take in what just had happened.

When we arrived at the hospital we were taken into a room where an emergency nurse came to see us. She asked Bhakta what had happened. Bhakta explained about going to the hospital, the phone calls. On some point he mentioned the reversal of sterilization. On this point the nurse went to see the doctors and told them and they immediately rushed her to the operating room to check her out for an ectopic pregnancy.

About 30 minutes later the doctor that operated on her came to see us and explained her current condition to us. Disha did have an ectopic pregnancy which had broken and she had bled into her tummy about 3 litres of blood. This had caused her blood pressure to drop significantly. They believe that she has had a cardiac arrest at home due to her blood pressure drop and that she had stopped breathing at home. They told us that "she is very, very ill and they don't believe that this will have a positive outcome" however at that point she was stable. Her heart was beating, although not on her own. For the moment Disha was on life supportive machines keeping her alive.

They brought us up to another room near the ICU where Disha was going to be.
Around 11:30 am, Disha was moved into the ICU. Sometimes after that her doctor and a medical team did some more tests on her to decide on her current condition. Then they came to talk to us. I feel that Disha had an incredible medical team around her that really cared for her not just in a medical sense. They were beautiful with her and with us. They really gave us as much space as we wanted to be with her, which I found amazing, given how many people were at the hospital wanting to sit with her. And also given that she was in ICU around other people that were very sick.

When the doctors came to talk with us that is the news that we got. They told us that Disha is very ill. That she is on a life supportive machine that is keeping her alive. That her heart is beating, but her blood pressure is very low and they are not able to get it stronger at this point. That she is been given lots of medications to keep her heart beating , and she was also receiving lots of blood. They said, that there is a problem with her blood, it was not clotting at all. They told us that her eyes are fully dilated as they are when a person has died or the person’s brain has died. Her kidneys have failed. Her liver is not doing very good.  He gave her very little chance of recovery. He said they were worried about her brain, they believed that it had died. However he also said that there is the miracle factor and because she is so young they need to take this in consideration. We were all praying for that miracle.

A few of us were in the hospital. We took turns in sitting by her bed side, praying with her, loving her, talking with her. Sitting in silence with her.

Sometimes in the afternoon, there was some news that she had tested positive for a brown snake bite. This was later ruled out again. The doctors explained that in some cases, very ill people that have a lot of medications put into their bodies, snake serum tests can come back positive. By yesterday he completely confirmed that he does not believe that any snake bite was ever involved.

On Thursday evening the doctors called us again into a room that was made available to us. He said that she had not gotten any better. That her organs are breaking down. Her blood pressure remains weak. He explained that they had done some further tests on her brain, that there was no change, her eyes were still fully dilated. He also explained that they are pumping a lot of blood into her, that her blood is still not clotting. He also confirmed another ultra sound. He said she was loosing blood again into her belly.  He said that in her condition it was impossible to perform another operation and he concluded that Disha probably will not make it through the night.

After that we continued to take turns in visiting her. I went home at that point to get some rest which was not easy. Some other people arrived at the hospital and stayed through the night.
The next morning I received a phone call from Sagarpriya. She told me that Disha's condition is unchanged. 1/2 hour later , Shanasa received a phone call, saying that Disha is getting worse. Shanasa and me went back to the hospital.

It was Friday and many friends came to the hospital. The hospital hall was full of people. Around 12 pm. Two doctors and a nurse came into the room and called everybody in. I really liked the doctor. I felt the team that was caring for Disha medically in the Lismore Base Hospital, were the best she could have hoped for. The Doctor explained to us what is happening.

He said, that Disha has gotten worse. He explained that through the night her liver had failed. Her Kidneys failed. He said that they had done further test on the brain. He explained that they can do reflex tests to see if there was any life in the brain. He explained that Disha's brain is dead and that the stem cells are also dead. He said that her body is deteriorating fast now.

He confirmed that there is nothing that can be done for Disha anymore and he suggested that it would be best to take her off life support. He explain again the medical events that led up to this moment and he concluded that Disha had died at home before she came to the hospital. With that, he explained that in Australia the law is that a person is dead when the brain is dead. He added that he believes that not only as a medical professional but also spiritually.

He shared that often people feel that someone is still alive when they see the heart beating and air going into a body raising the chest up an down. He explain that the emotions and feelings  come from the brain and when Disha's brain died, he believes that is when she left her body and that she is now in a higher place.  

He said that it is very clear to him and his medical team why she died. He explained that she had an ectopic pregnancy that broke and made her loose a lot of blood into her tummy. That led to a very low blood pressure, leading to a cardiac arrest where she stopped breathing. He said he believes that happened at her home in the early hours on Thursday and she arrived at the Lismore Hospital essentially already died. They kept her body alive artificially in the hope that maybe Disha will come back, although that possibility was very slim from the start. However given her age they felt they had to give Disha the best possible chance there is. He said he was very sorry and that he can see how much she is loved. I told him that she was a very special women, to which he responded, I can see that, I just have to look around and see her in you.

At that point Bhakta ask him if he is absolutely sure that she is gone and that her brain is dead and nothing can be done for her anymore. The doctor said , yes I am is sure. Bhakta decided then that she should be taken off life support as soon as possible.

Sometimes around 3:30 pm Bhakta called in all the people from Samasati and some friends to stand next to her bed. I am sure how many people but maybe 30. We hummed for about 10 minutes and send her lots of love and prayers. After 10 minutes Bhakta asked everyone to go out. Just a few of us stayed behind. The nurse came and switched off the life support machines. She asked Bhakta if he would like the tubes to be removed. He said yes. The nurse was really sweet, she talked to Disha and said that she will take the tubes out and that it will be a little bit uncomfortable but she would feel better after wards.

Disha took the last breath out. It was amazing to see her eyes slowly opening , halfway. They stayed open for a while and then slowly at some point closed again.

Disha was taken off life support at 3:50 pm on Friday the 9th of September.

I realise that reading this events might bring up many different feelings around the experience Disha might have had been hooked up to those machines, been worked on by doctors. Her body took a beating there is no doubt about it. I would love to share something about this. I am aware that everyone’s experience is different from mine and everyone feelings are different. My feeling was that at no time while Disha was in the hospital did I ever feel her there, for me it was clearly just her body, her beautiful body and host to her beautiful spirit. I also did not feel her in her body anymore when I arrived Thursday morning in her house to help her. It was as clear to me as it can be with the limited understanding I might have about what happens to us when we die. I did feel her however very strongly in the room. I felt her passing in my back. I felt her as a light, sparkling. I did not experience her in any pain or fear.

On some point during the time when we were all in the room. Disha lying on the floor, Bhakta holding her feet, 6 paramedics frantically working on her. Shanasa, Avikal, Amira and Adri, just there. And me, being practical on the phone. At some point I was looking over to what was happening and it was almost as if I was watching a scene on TV and the sound was turned off. I experienced a deep silence and peace. Later Adri shared with us that he had the same experience.

I don't know anything about all of this. I can only go by what I was feeling, and I also realise that it might just be my mind and desire to want to make it all better. But I truly believe that Disha died at home which she treasured, next to Bhakta whom she loved deeply, with her baby inside that she wanted so much and Yamuna her little puppy laying next to her.  

A dear friend is gone. I will miss her, I will cry for her, but I will dance, laugh and sparkle for her. From the moment I met her many years ago when she was only 9 years old to this moment. Disha, to me, you are the embodiment of the meaning of love and spirit. To me your heart was a place of prayer. My beloved Disha, goodbye............my gorgeous, wild and so gentle, juicy, graceful, spirited loving, funny, most beautiful most beloved friend. I am grateful to have spend this crazy and wonderful life with you. I love you now and forever.

Disha’s body will have to undergo an autopsy as there is an investigation on the way for Criminal Medical Negligence. This was put into motion probably by the Lismore Hospital. If the Coroner is satisfied with his findings on Monday he will release her body on Tuesday and we can have her celebration on Wednesday - Thursday. If they have to send her for further forensic tests the celebration might happen either Thursday or Friday. Bhakta likes to have the celebration as soon as possible.

Somebody or myself will inform Rupda when the celebration will happen.

I like to end this letter by saying how amazing Bhakta has been in the last few days. Many people are deeply touched by how focused he has been. I can’t imagine what this would be like for me would it be my Beloved. Bhakta has been so amazing with Disha in the last few days, putting her always first, loving her and saying goodbye in such as gracious way. Watching him I could feel Osho and the spirit of Bhakta and Disha of who they were together.

For now, all my love to all of you that loved Disha so much.

Nishant

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There was NO snake bite. Confirmed.

A full criminal investigation will now be underway..

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We have just come back from the hospital,and I just wanted to give you and the many who love Disha an update about what happened this afternoon.
Today the dokter in charge called Baktha and the many that gathered in the hospital together and told us that Disha"s brain had died,and that the major organs were not functioning anymore,and that there was nothing they could do for Disha anymore.
He told us that her body had basically died already by the time she went on lifesupport,and that the machines kept her artificially alive.
Baktha decided to let her go and stop the machines,and a while later we all gathered around Disha to say goodbye.
We hummed together for a while,and after that a few friends stayed behind to be with her while the machines where switched off,and the tube was removed from her mouth.
She looked so peacefull,and her eyes slowly opened halfway,and closed again.
After that they brought her in a separate room,where everybody was allowed to be with her,and we played music and Osho tapes.
Coming home I walked into the meditationroom in sammasati which is full of her pictures and candles and her music is playing,and it felt so peacefull to sit there.
I feel very sad that we will never see her anymore,and very thankfull for meeting her,she was just so full of live and love,she will be missed by all of us.

Lots of love

Shanasa

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There have been some questions regarding the legitimacy of the snake bite that Disha had received. There are no signs of entry/snake bite on Disha and it's possible that some of the symptoms that Disha was suffering from we're solely due to her ectopic pregnancy hemorrhaging.

On Monday they will perform an autopsy and the coroner will give a definitive answer to whether Disha even suffered from a snake bite or not. If the snake bite is ruled out, then we have a clear cause of death, and if there was negligence to Disha's death, those responsible for sending Disha home that day... will need to stand up for that... at the very least.