GLOBAL

Beloved angel
Funny - how we loved each other from afar.
When I think of the times we actually hung out, I could count them on one hand - the Dylan concert in Brisbane - the guitar lessons in the garden in Pune - the magical moment of our meeting in Darpans temple that night...and of course our last meeting, when you joined us at the Byron Community Theatre to celebrate and sing to our beloved Osho...
Yes, I know you knew me, like I knew you.
I knew your fragile dreams, I knew your passionate heart, I knew your wild, crazy woman, I knew your longing and I knew your music – and (this makes me sad) I also knew the music that was still to come...
Now I will have to listen a little more carefully to the wind in the trees, I'll be more aware of the the ripples of sound that the waves sing at dawn...of the innocent laughter of babies...
Because, I know that's where I'll find you now, beloved Disha.

Sail on, sweet one.
You're safe now.

Namaste,
Miten

ps. Last night Deva and I played in Montreal, and guess who with!? - Carioca and his band.
Deva began the evening by talking about you, about how our grieving was to be part of the concert, and we invited Carioca to join us, for Yemaya Assessu - the chant that celebrates the moment the river meets the ocean.
You came in so strong, Dish - the whole theatre was singing for you, and somehow, with all these complete strangers, you brought us together as One, and we watched our tears of sadness being transformed right there, into tears of joy and celebration.

And that's who you are, beloved, and who you will always be – a bright reflection of all that is good and graceful and joyful.

We will all take the very best out of this sad gift you have blessed us with.
We owe you that.
We owe you the best.
Because you were the best.

"No death is death, because every death opens a new door -- it is a beginning. There is no end to life, there is always a new beginning, a resurrection."
Osho

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GLOBAL

Beloved Disha, my sweet golden sister... I feel so grateful that we walked the same path, shared the same heartbeat...sang the same song.
When I feel numbed and shocked with your passing, not being able to comprehend the injustice of it all, I bring myself back to this:
Your life was so blessed in every way, how could your death be otherwise?
This helps me to carry on.
And how can I thank you now, my dear one, for showering your sweet love, joy and sparkles on me, even though I sometimes let my feelings of unworthiness get in the way?
I will do it with song and with the mantras - the only way I can.
I always thought that one day we will have more time together...and now I know we will.
We are one in Osho – never born, never died.
I love you with all my heart.
Deva


The Holy Longing
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Tell a wise person or else keep silent
For the massman will mock it right away.
I praise what is truly alive
And what longs to be burned to death.
In the calm waters of the love nights
Where you were begotten,
Where you have begotten,
A strange feeling comes over you
When you see the silent candle burning.
Now you are no longer caught in this obsession with darkness
And a desire for higher lovemaking sweeps you upward.
Distance does not make you falter.
And now, arriving in magic, flying
and finally, insane for the light
You are the butterfly.
And you are gone.
And so long as you haven’t experienced this,
To die and so to grow,
You are only a troubled guest on a dark earth.

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JAPAN

Hi Rupda
Just spent many hours going through the photos and messages on your Disha website. And feel so grateful that someone got this together so we can all share in what feels to me like a massive collective grief and shock around our sannyas world. I am currently in Japan so cut off from immediate contact with the family. There is something so disturbing about feeling the energy but not having the information and facts to understand what you are feeling.

I have been stuck in a group all day, forced to deal with what felt like irrelevancies, filled with images of Disha's beautiful face, feeling her love, and the many instances of her ready intimacy. It is such a relief to go to this site and have my mind tune in where my heart has been all day. This forum plugs us into this information nucleus and gives a focus for the feelings.

Thank you Rupda and my deep condolences to Nandan and Bhakta whose grief I can only imagine. 

How strange our lives,  that one of the most pure and perfect among us should move on so soon.

Love from Mangala

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CANADA

Hi everyone
We are here in Canada Saltspring Island but not that far from all who in this moment is connect with our beloved Disha. She will be kept in our hearts.
love and light to you Disha

from Najma, Prasad, Hector

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloved Rupda,
we just came back home from Italy, when we opened the mail and found
out...........we were shocked and tearful and at first couldn't
believe......
Thank you so much for putting up all these photos and letters, we feel like
in a commune that is around the world.
All our love
Meera and Svagito

I met Disha first in the Rebalancing Training we did together in 1985. I
always felt her love and joy, for me she always represented how Osho wanted
his sannyasins to be, what a loss, and at the same time I feel how it
brings all of us a bit closer. I don't know yet, what to say, I only feel I
would love to be with everybody and celebrate her leaving with all of you.
Meera and me will do our own private celebration here in Munich and feel
connected to everyone, when we give her our love and send off. I will miss
her.
with love and gratefulness
Svagito

Disha's life is "OSHO LIFE " When she took sannyas I was there wittnessing. What a sweetness around ! She was born to be with Osho . And Nandan was
my dear friend ... The last time I saw her was in Byron Bay on the street
, telling me about her music , so much creativity and love coming out of
her . Like my sister she lived and she left the world behind , but totally
lived and expressed love without holding back . Disha's leaving the body is
another big gift to all of us . Disha you are always in my heart , see you
soon

Meera

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ITALY

Beloved Disha

so much love from your heart, so much joy from your eyes, so much depth from your soul! This is my experience with you in all these years.
I feel full of gratitude for your presence among us, while in the body, and for your light now, where your soul is ... blessed one.

My heart is with all the friends , and with you Nandan and Bakta.

Siddho

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloveds, 
first the shock, then the tears, then the love and the awe about the worldwide connection which is still alive in moments, when we are deeply touched. 
Disha touched me in a way beyond words. Disha, I hold you in honor, respect, love and deep appreciation for what you embodied on this planet. 
Sweet friend - travel well. 
Love, Bhadrena 

Bhakta, 
whenever you will read this, know, that we think of you and hold you in our prayers/meditation/thoughts/heart... 
Words do not convey the state we are in and we can not even imagine how you must feel. We send you love and support and much strength and courage. 
A big hug from Bhadrena and Kavi 

Nandan, 
even though we have not seen each other for some years, I love you dearly and send you this note in the spirit of support. Bhadrena

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AUSTRALIA

dear disha,
i never spent so much time with you,but that doesnt matter ,because the times we did meet briefly around byron bay and in the path of love ,your smile,your eyes ,your presence, always lit up my life and took me into eternity and time disappeared.the longest was two hours we spent talking about sharing meditation with young people -your very being was the essence of your love to share with young people.for me you were the essence of what osho said :"and better people will be coming!"now you have left this world of the physical-but i see and feel you still so close shining a light of timeless joy ,love and what words could never say from your merging in oneness with oshos radiant light.so now i can truly say thank you so much for still sharing the mystery of all that you are ever more abundantly.and i know your spirit will be with me and the dolphins as i continue to share with the children, and indeed with all those beloved children of osho,all your friends and lovers , you have loved as much as any woman could in your short but oh so total life of serving oshos vision.like an arrow you have flown in the direction of bliss--aah this....!we are blessed to have been touched by such a one as you,

thank you, manan

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LOCACATION UNKNOWN

With Love from Amrita

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BRASIL

I like to say good bye to Disha and to express my love to the one's close to her... we have met only a few times, but she was one of those that you never forget...such a special , beautifull, loving , fun , and great being... my heart is flying with her...
much much love...
vimukta

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BAY AREA, USA

Angel Heart Disha,

Thank you for your beautiful and very real presence. You have been and continue to be a gorgeous inspiration in so many ways to so many people. I am grateful to have met you and am so deeply touched by your deep impact on so many hearts. I celebrate your life and the woman that you were.

love to you forever holding hands with God,
Lily

Stunned into silence, a silence so filled with love
And sorrow
And beauty
In the preciousness and fragility of being
Filled with the incomprehensible truth of loving, of living, of dying.
Disha baby. The cells of my body ache and spill.

Breathing all in
Everything joins into nothing. A nothing that is the soul of the love of you
in this buddhafield that we are. A nothing that is me/you/we/this

All I can see is you, Disha. Remembering like only the heart remembers
as a young girl at the ranch
Coming to sit with me while I was with the kids
Coming with the sweetest heart imaginable
To sing. To enter. To pour love through song. All I can see is the innocent
golden light shinning in your eyes. The cells of my body ached then, too.
With the beauty of you.

All I can feel is your purest heart's longing, joining this stream of truth
song. All I can feel is, I love you. Bless you. I love you. Bless you.

The shock has melted, is melting me now, has broken my heart open
More vast than words will allow. A reverence beyond utterance.

Disha beloved one. We have been gifted with your life, the truth of your
songs, and now, your death. And the waves keep spreading deeper into this
moment, this, this, this
Eternity of undying love connection.

Fly free baby.

In the silences, always,

Maniko

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ITALY

Beloved beloved Disha,
You have always been part of my life and to let you go isn’t easy at all.
I have been trying to keep track of the news while I was working in Milano and crying anytime I could.
In this shock it is very difficult for me to write about the strong feelings that this sudden event has brought up in me.
You have been a sparkle of giggling light doesn’t matter what...even when you were sad and were coming to share with me and pouring out your heart. How many times we gossiped and laughed and “de-briefed” together about our lives. We would start as if we never left each other even if a year or more had passed.
I rushed back to Miasto yesterday where we had a life music evening meeting dedicated to you.
In the beginning I was so sad and a familiar thought about celebrating death was bugging me.
I got angry.
How can I possibly celebrate this enormous loss, I sobbed and sobbed and almost screamed at existence and to Osho.
I am so sick of celebrating ....and having to let go and of you Dish.why you?
Why do I have to celebrate this emptiness left in the world...I slowly got up and awkwardly started to move . First an angry dance and than saw you sneaking in the next seat just like you were doing on celebration days in Pune when you were butting in at the last minute with your rascal smile. We danced together and sang from the bottom of our hearts Dish, slowly you started to rise above us all.....
Disha, beloved, keep on giggling and fly high!
Than emptiness and silence, so deep and rich and a beautiful song about compassion....Nandan I was holding you in my arms and will be doing that when you come back to Italy.
Bhakta there are no words for you but tears.
Love and gratitude

Radha

Ps Thank you Rupda to make us aware again of the tread that keeps us still together...for ever.

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HOLLAND

......... no words or maybe to many going around in my head ........

It was an honour to have met YOU and will carry your shining light with me - wish all the people on Samasati and especially Bhakta a lot of strength & love.

Lots of love Xx Manon

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Sweet Disha,

A message to take to wherever you have gone.... Of everyone I met that last time I was in Pune, you touched me so deeply, your beauty and light never left me. I drank them in, especially in the group, I remember so well you holding me while I cried and cried, how good to feel your unconditional love. How i felt that love every time I passed you, and in the sound of your voice singing in Buddha Hall. And even later in your emails, I felt it. I didn't know you so well, and I wish I had. But even so the tears come and I miss you already, miss knowing you are out there somewhere shining your love on everyone. I wish I had done the Path of Love with you when you told me to.... I wish your time here had been longer, wish you had gotten to be a momma.... It is a blessing to have known you, and I know you are still shining somewhere, will always be.

Endless love,
Jess

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INDIA - AUSTRALIA

a blissful soul
at the entrance, ah you
finally arrives home

Beloved Disha

New journey from one body to thousands.

you have always touch everyones heart.

Your leaving body
shaken many centre of being
and refuel them with
fire of love, celebration and meditation.

Your devotion and love for OSHO ...

At the moment i am traveling in Japan.

Vimal tells me of your journey

I look out
an open window
a gate of Japanese temple
wide open
welcomes you beloved

CHAREVETI CHAREVETI CHAREVETI

My gratitude, love you share.

PremPrabhu

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INDIA

Beloved Sweet Disha,

as if your sudden departure wasn't enough...
now look what you've left us --
this huge global outpouring
of love and wonder
sharing of memories and the deepest of feelings...
to remind us how we ALL were so deeply touched by you.
what an unparalleled beauty you were!
what abundant gifts you have given us.

i bow down in gratitude.

bon voyage!

Sheelu
on the road in North India

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COLORADO, USA

Beloved Rupda,

Thank you for connecting the sangha in this beautiful way!

For Disha--Beloved one,

I have been listening to your songs, looking at your photos and seeing messages pour in from around the world to you. All of this reminds me of Osho saying at the ranch that it would be the kids who would really understand his message. Looking at your sannyas initiation photo I see the love pouring back and forth between you and Osho. In the photos I see you as "The New Woman" of Osho's dream of "The New Man".

On Thursday we had a spontaneous celebration at our Osho Boulder Meditation Center. Our musicians, Jamie, Samir and Suvarna, took us so high to give you a fuel-injected boost beyond the stars! On Saturday night the celebration continued at Geha's and my house. Our beloved musicians played again wiith Jamie opening with "Good-bye, Disha" and then about 25 of us sang for hours. Many of us are your lovers from Path of Love in Colorado and New Mexico. Thank you for sharing your gifts with us in that group so beautifully.

Wishing you joy in your expanded journey!

For Bhakta: I have only seen your photos and heard your music. Sending you hugs forever...

For Nandan: A mother's heart! I feel for you so much. Holding you close...

Love,
Sanghamitra

Disha...
You are a bliss
an angel on the path
pouring out all your love and joy
so alive...
so innocent...
I will never forget your shining beauty
giving a hand and be a part in my sannyas celebration
singing...dancing...
I am so grateful that I had the chance to share
one of my happiest day with you.

shunyam nilufer

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ITALY

Disha, darling Disha,
you are a being of love and light
a treasure vibrating within my heart
thank you for your sweetness, radiance and beauty and thank you for your loving friendship over so many years i love you with all my heart and i will miss you so much you are a light shining eternally over us all.

Namaste
Satya Puja

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HAWAII, USA

What a precious being. My heart goes out to all of her closest friends and family. Her passing will definitely have a huge effect on the world that will continue to be felt for a long time.
These letters again remind me what a beautiful family we have. I am deeply moved and grateful for Disha's example of a life well lived.

Angel of Love (AKA Disha),
I'm in utter awe in experiencing the beauty that you brought to this planet and the incredible ripple...... (maybe more...TSUNAMI) that leaving your body created in this sannyasin ocean.
I'm so deeply grateful to existence, Nandan and Osho to have made it possible for my path to cross with yours. Thank you with my whole being Disha...for being.
Madir Maui, HI (but in Canada at the moment)

PS: Also so deeply grateful to Rupda for creating this virtual Buddha Hall and allowing us to be part of this virtual Darshan. So healing to be even just a drop in this ocea

Nigama

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Here is a poem.

Osho, Disha, our common heart,
Who else could he have given
to warm the coldness we let creep into our daily lives?
Osho, Disha, your hand and your heart sweeps through us now -
It is time, it is time,
To remember the oneness that is your beauty,
waiting so patiently,
Within us all.

Dipak

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GERMANY

Disha love

Beloved neighbor and friend
Gentle loving, friendly soul

Thank you for the beauty
Thank you for your songs
Thank you for your purity and innocence

In my eyes your cup was never far from golden
May your longing be fulfilled now
May your light continue to shine.

Be well dear Disha

Rani

ITALY

My beautiful little angel,
So much sadness and love. Remembering you in Veggie Villas playing with all the kids and later on the Ranch teaching you french, so much fun and tenderness. For the last time let me share with you our little private joke "My little bunch of dummy chérie".....
Bon Voyage, my darling, you will be in my heart for ever
Bhakta

- UNKNOWN

Sweet Sweet Disha!
Beloved Big Sis....
Kept thinking that we would meet up again at some point....amazed at being 'all growed up'....and catch up and laugh - kids of the commune...
Wow....
If there is such a thing as a 'Saint' - you're it baby! for lack of better 'human' labels - ha ha
Amazing how I miss you now because I feel like I've run out of time to come and play with you and really get to know you now as a woman...as a momma!
So very touched by your sweetness and exquisite fragrance which permeated everyone you met and everything you did...what a woman!
Courageous, Graceful, Always Kind, Loving, Open, Uplifting, Inspiring...what to say....words seem so silly!
Guess you can feel it all now in that vast expansive journey...just see you smiling....shining right along...

All my Love & Gratitude Forever!
Sagara

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HOLLAND

Disha,
 
We miss you
Much love from Boxmeer
 
Anja, Edwin and the dogs

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SPAIN

My beloved sweet-sweet One,

I can't believe you have left.
Your photo, sweetheart, is in the arms of a big Buddha I
have next to my bed and Osho is right next to it looking at you.
But I guess you are with all of them already.

When I was doing whatever I could to try (in vain) to say goodbye to you,
I could just hear you saying: 'Oh Kali that is so beautiful!'
Your voice, my darling, is in my ears. Your sweet smell has been around me
since I first heard that you went to the hospital.

Dish, my sweet one, you were there for me so many times
in a way that only special beings could be. You were a dream-come-true
girlfriend. I love you forever.

I kiss your beautiful face and hold your perfect hands now.

Wherever you are, please know that I love you so much and am
forever grateful for your love. You are gorgeous!

Kali

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Hi Rupda, Hope this reaches you. Thank you so much for making this possible. I only put a face to your name this morning........I never met you personally but staffed on POL in 2004 and was at a table at the Brunswick pub having dinner with you then......Turiya and I go way back...as Osho would say much water has passed under the ganges since we met.....please give lots of love and a big hug to her  when you see her next. Will probably see you next POL in Byron......how strange that will be without our beloved Deesh.

Deesh Beloved,

I am heartbroken that you are gone
Not to see you again fills me with such deep sadness
You truly did squeeze the juice from life and
I'm sure wherever you are you will be doing likewise
with the same abandon and totality you did here.

Last time we talked I remember being so touched by
the depth of intimacy you shared...that was one of
your special gifts...I felt embraced with love and
total sincerity.

What a huge hole you will leave in our community
and although I am not with you physically today
at your celebration we here in Perth will be united
with all those there and around the world in the
sorrow of losing you and the joy of having had
such a precious one in our lives.

In tears and love

Yatra

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GERMANY

New Earth Records homepage there is Disha's song "How long" to download.
Beloved Disha, what can I say? Your song - I hear it now since hours. Your question, how long......Thank you for your light and joy and innocence, your being real- such an angel, angel! We all will miss you so much. And yet know you are in it all- ever in our hearts. I embrace you.
Raji

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ITALY

God needed a new angel
the heavens are rejoicing

ankur

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USA

Hi Rupda, this is written by a dear friend of mine Michael, after he looked at your website...which I shared with him.
He is in the USA.

Much much love to you

Thank you for sharing the beautiful sangha surrounding this wonderful
Goddess Disha leaving her body. I did not know her but the pictures and
outpouring of love from around the world speak volumes of who she is.

I just humbly chanted with great love the "Om Purnamadah" in her honor.

Om Purnamada, Purnamidam
Purnat Purnamudacyate
Purnasya Purnamadaya
Purnamevavasisyate

Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti

OM That is perfect. This is perfect. From the perfect springs the perfect.
If from the perfect, the perfect be taken, only the perfect
remains.

Om, Peace.

I wish you and all the sweet Beings in the world who knew and love Disha
experience a short grief and see how perfect you all are.

Michael

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Hi Rupda

Many thanks for taking time to post our thoughts for Disha.

It's sad... and yet... she was so total and joyful and alive that it
doesn't really feel like she's gone, except from the body. But that's
the bit we all miss so much.
She created a beautiful being this time, a wonderful song, a poem of a
dance, something for us all to learn and marvel over.
See you soon Disha, wherever it may be.

And a big big hug for Bhakta. {{O}}

Love jalal and ajara

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UK

I want to say to Disha Thank for you life and thank for you death because you have put all the lover of Osho together in the celebration of you life. Sweet heart I now that wherever you are you light is shyning even more now in as, thank you Love Samardo

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Hi Rupda

Thank you so much for creating this site !
It really helps somehow, in the helplessness I feel in this ..
So suddenly .. Such a shock .. zen stick to the MAX ..

....what a sad sad sad thing that has happened ..

...very very tough to take in ...

Although right now, in connecting to her spirit, it feels very bright and full of light.

Right now, I clearly see her smile, her eyes and feel her sweet sweet voice. So full of love and wonder ...

I remember all the joyous times of her sharing herself with us in Poona .. In RISK .. In Germany ..
The loss is ours .. and it's a BIG big one !!

Such a thin line between life and death.
And what a dramatic way to cross it !!!!!!
I send Love and Light to all the friends in Oz around her, especially Nandan.
As a parent I can barely touch her reality in this ... the biggest fear / challenge of all I can imagine.

.... and to Bhakta ... !!!
and Rafia ....

A big YES to the infinite we share together ... all of us .. with OSHO .. in all times
Let's just play some music .. keep on spreading the resonance of love and laughter .. . .

We stay connected

Gratitude

In Love
Rishi

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GERMANY

Was in the darshan last night to say bye to disha in cologne and it so much touched my heart.Felt so much love for her and everyones love and tears for her.
i especially had to think of rafia,her mum and bhakta and i send you all strength and love.I just accompanied my dad 6 weeks ago,he died of cancer.So i can really feel the loss and pain you are going through.
And so much gratitude for dishas great spirit.

Ruho

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Words from Rabia
[click here]

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UK

Beloved Rupda

So grateful to you for creating such a loving space for us to all connect to
celebrate Disha's farewell. The fragrance of this rare flower remains deeply
for me.

Beloved Nandan
Heart is both broken & expanded for the loss of your daughter and
grandchild.
She chose you to be her mother. Wow! What a grace. A rare flower who shared
her fragrance ever so sweetly. She touched me so deeply already when she was
only nine.
Such an ancient soul. Perhaps she came to teach us about love and now she
has gone home cos her task is done and we can continue this now.
Holding holding you...........

Beloved Bhakta
I am lost for words. The loss of a sweatheart and a child that you both
share is a huge huge process to bear. They say Existence never gives us what
we cannot bear to take us to another level of being.
Holding,holding you........

with lovelovelove & arms around you all
anutosh

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BAY AREA, USA

Beloved Rupda,
thank you for all that you are doing.

What a light she is! So beautiful in every way possible.
It's been so long since I've seen her but I can still hear her voice and see her on the inside,
she is imprinted there.
I made an alter for her and lit a candle...When I closed my eyes I found myself saying her name over and over, a huge smile spread through me and so much love. She feels so good to me...Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh!

From now on when I sing, I will sing for us both...She is and has always been an angel in this world.

I can't believe this has happened.

All my love to you and everyone
Yutika

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SWITZERLAND

I am crying tears in between html codes and uploading pages.
Also could not stop thinking of Bakta, Rafia and Nandan.
Just sending massive love to everyone
Keep checking in and don't forget to reload as more infos get's put out.

http://www.otoons.com/gossips/disha.html

love devakrishna

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OREGON, USA

Beloved Rupda, What a blessing it is for you to create this amazing site. How wonderful for me to feel again the magnitude of our incredible community and how quickly we come together even in this moment of such shock and disbelief.
For precious Disha, Such gratitude for the grace, beauty and love you showered in life as an example for us all of how a life well-lived can be. For me there is no way to understand and in its place, the mystery.

For Bhakta and Nandan, Tears cloud my mind keeping words at bay. From the sudden loss of my oldest granddaughter five years ago, I know there are no words that can comfort and the loss of the physical presence of the one you hold dear will always be felt. My heart goes out to you.

Arupo, Portland,OR

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VENEZUELA

The Sacred
Makes Us Speachless

These are the mysteries of life ;
when you cannot say it,

The urge becomes more and more
powerful to say it.

The musican says in his own way
the poet says in his own way
the painter says in his own way ,
but nobody succeeds-

somthing remains beyound all
expression...

Thank you Beloved Disha and Family ...

Love n Light

Vihunga

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Disha

she's truely one of our all beloved !
having stepped ahead of us
and beaming with love
from the stars

Amareesh

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GERMANY

Beloved Disha,
Friday this emptiness and vastness and ... also the feeling someone is leaving... I didn't know who? what? where? All I felt was the same as when Osho left his body...
I didn't "know" you really "personally" - but the way one is connected "somehow" over the years... Now this...and so much love and peace - what a gift and beauty - always... words are difficult, Gyan Rupda

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OREGON (10 MILES FROM THE RANCH), USA

Beloved Disha,

no words can express the emptiness in my life that was once my friend Disha. you sparkled, laughed, goofed around, so many things I connected with. And your love for Osho--it was like you were permeated with it--drunk with the divine indeed. My beloved friend, I already miss you so much; you were a pillar of our community and we are wobbling without you!
you were notoriously late....but this time too early!
I love you so much. Until we meet again.

Nirala

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

hi Rupda sweetheart,

I was just updating sannyas.org again and Disha had sent me an update just recently.
when I started, I kept looking at her picture with osho and
she looked so unbelievably cute that it almost made me cry.

and now I’m really crying. this is so fucking sad.
osho died 3 month before her 21st b’day. and now she dies 3 months before his b’day.

a bug hug for you for making her such a lovely website.
be well, Rudra

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AUSTRALIA

Darling Disha...
You are in every moment and every breath.
I was always looking forward to our next time together, .....in my sadness I remind myself, that we now have all the time in the world. I feel you there, everywhere.
My sweet Aries sister.
Lighting the way , showing us all the sweetness of surrender and eternal devotion.
I remember my first visit to your house and how inspired I was with your life.... and I’ll always remember loving your vegie patch !
Now I think of you when I am pulling out a lettuce from mine......I love it.

I ordered your album today on line...finally....in perfect time.
I am singing ‘Drowning in Grace’ everywhere.
Thankyou for your love and yumminess and for reminding us never to be afraid of letting go.

I love you Disha.

My love, prayers and blessings to dear Bhakta and Nandan

Catik xxx

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AUSTRALIA

Dearest Beloved Disha,
Your loving innocense touched me to my core. I'll
never forget our walk of truth, like two warrior
princesses blazing our way home.
You are home dearest one and I am with you.
Heera

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CANADA

One bright afternoon years ago, Disha dove into the lake where her aunt, Amrita, and I relaxed and watched with Rafia nearby.
Right now I see Disha as she surfaced, her smile and the sun making the world light.

Disha, Disha, we burn candles for you, we write for you, we remember you. Our hearts expand with tenderness, feeling the enormous release of energy your passing brings to the community of those who share their memories and joy in knowing you.

Osho brought us together, and now the celebration of your life allows us to be aware of the gift of love you freely shared with every smile.

With a grateful heart for Disha and her lovers,
Ma Veet Yantra, Yantara

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OREGON, USA

Beloveds,

Love,

Oh, beloved spiritual traveller in a hurry

You were showing one and all right Disha

Many many folks suddenly jumped in dark-Nisha

You pl. be a guide-angel to bring us out of this Nisha

Oh, you Disha, Pl. show us right inner Anand Disha

Nisha = night in Indian language

Loving pranams to Nandan and love to you all.

In LOVE,

dr.gokul gokani ( Sw.Anand krishna )
kumud gokani ( Ma Yoga Kumud )

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GERMANY

beloved Disha
it so hard to say good bye to a flower like u, tears flows...but if in life you have touched the heart the ones whom get to know you...right now you enlightned the spirits around the planet and connect everybody with your fragance . The fine essence of love, beauty,presence, kindness, music, luck and spirituality....a candle burns in your house with a picture we got from the website....and even the children and my beloved whom didnt get to know , pays respect for your enchanting smile now shinning above us...
may you and the baby have a nice journey to heaven/nirvana where a angel like u belong
in love and gratitude

Abadha

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GERMANY

Beloved Disha !

when we last met in poona at a deathcelebration,
you said: " Isn´t that still the best place to die...
being celebrated by sooo many friends..."
yes my dear !... Now we are even from all around the world
with you celebrating you ...dear Angel !
Thank you for learning from your strength
and trust in love in such and honest, innocent
and loving touching way...
for me you truly live the path of love and
now as i feel you sooo strongly in every cell
all around the planet...
your loving kind yet strong and wise spirit and presence..
smiling in me...
since days....as i´m singing and meditating
celebrating you....
i can feel this colomn of love
and light where all tears and pains... are
disappearing in this love... it´s as if i
finially understand the path of love...
all my contacting is changing soo deeply...
thank you forever my dear ...!!!
i will live this love....
through my whole live ....!!!

THANK YOU BELOVED DISHA ANGEL !
THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOU !
YOUR BEAUTIFULL GRACE !
FLY HIGH !

THANK YOU OSHOOO !

here i rewrote my Sufipoem for you
beloved and precious sister...

Oh what joy!

when the petels of your heartsflower open
spreading is velvet parfum
all around and around
and around

yet sooo still

sweetly in gratefull grace

gone gone

gone in the smile

of heavens bow

I LOVE YOU DISHA !

Ma Prem Kamadevi

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

a lot of love remembering you
a lot of sadness not seeing you
a lot of hope lissening you
a lot of joy thinking of you
a lot of ...
a...

Atmo Ketan

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Disha,
This message really got to me and kept me busy through some nights.
Even though we never knew each other very well,
I will light more candles for you and keep you in very beautiful memories,
just like ones I have always had of you.
Sadness arose in me, which I did't feel in a long time.
Have a wonderful journey !
Bhakta I send you lots of strenth and love.

- unknown

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ISRAEL

Beloved friends and family,

At Friday night a 18 years old/young woman died in a car accident in
the place where i live. it is a little commune (kibutz). Yesterday i
remember Osho commune. OSHO's attitude to death. death celebrations.
was singing this devotion and love songs. told my friend here about
death and life in Osho's hands.
At night i got the news about Disha's death. that she is not in one
body any more. i set in front of the computer for hours, meeting
friends from all
over the glob,crying and laughing together, being in Osho commune
again.
I met Disha in a "satori" retreat in Puna some 8 years ago. there were
about 70 people in one room. i remember her. her beauty, her voice the
depth of longing, the connection to osho and the commune. i was so
jealous! she was my age and she was ALIVE! full of love and grace.
Meeting death through Disha touche the depth of my heart. bring me
even closer to Osho. to the commune that i'm looking for, to all my
sisters and brothers around the world, to the quest to give myself
fully to life...so i can die in peace.
To share the love and gratitude. to sing and dance. to give back the
gift of life.

Thanx Rupda for putting this page together. Thank you Disha for
crossing my path in this life, being a sweet, beauty wake up call for
my heart! reminding me again what it is all about.
i feel blessed to be part of this sangha.
with tears and love,
in the hands of our beloved master,
love to all. prem pavitra. Israel

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CALIFORNIA

Disha,
I am only writing this knowing that these written words will be following
you from the ashes and into the winds at the celebration of your life.
I never thanked you, although we spoke often about my father, I never
thanked you for being there for me. When I reconnected with my father you
were such a huge and tremendous part of his life, that by default you
became just as important. I could never think of my father without thinking
of you, and the thoughts were so warm and beatiful. Through the years of
growing closer to my dad you were there, and I think that you were an
instrumental part in reconnecting Rafia and me. The love that we share
today is in large part due to the unconditional love that you showed me in
a difficult time in my life.

My family loved you, I loved you, I wish I had spent more time with you at
my wedding, did I ever thank you for flying to California for my wedding?
Thank you for being a part of my life.

Peter Hancock

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BAY AREA, USA

Rupda my love - god bless you thank you. I have just returned from a 3 day
workshop and only now can touch the isness of our beloved Disha's death.
Just before I left Abhinandan called me and told me that Disha had left her
body. I can hardly write, now, but I will try.
Stunned into silence, a silence so filled with love
And sorrow
And beauty
In the preciousness and fragility of being
Filled with the incomprehensible truth of loving, of living, of dying.
Disha baby. The cells of my body ache and spill.

Breathing all in
Everything joins into nothing. A nothing that is the soul of the love of you
in this buddhafield that we are. A nothing that is me/you/we/this

All I can see is you, Disha. Remembering like only the heart remembers
as a young girl at the ranch
Coming to sit with me while I was with the kids
Coming with the sweetest heart imaginable
To sing. To enter. To pour love through song. All I can see is the innocent
golden light shinning in your eyes. The cells of my body ached then, too.
With the beauty of you.

All I can feel is your purest heart's longing, joining this stream of truth
song. All I can feel is, I love you. Bless you. I love you. Bless you.

The shock has melted, is melting me now, has broken my heart open
More vast than words will allow. A reverence beyond utterance.

Disha beloved one. We have been gifted with your life, the truth of your
songs, and now, your death. And the waves keep spreading deeper into this
moment, this, this, this
Eternity of undying love connection.

Fly free baby.

In the silences, always,

Maniko

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TAIWAN - CANADA

Beloved:

Oh such a Gift you are to all of us Disha! You are a reminder of Samasati - to each and every one of us, even in your parting. My heart breaking is my heart opening. As I read all the beautiful passages, poetry,
passion, mementos of love in your memory... I am so deeply touched by the unconditional love that goes on spreading each moment! We are truly a spiritual community! I feel so privileged to remain connected.
And Rupda.... thank you for creating this window where so much light is pouring through at such a difficult time for all. Nandan, Bhakta, Amrita... my prayers
remain with you!

Ma Ramakanta

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GERMANY

Beloved Disha,

we met when we were children but we were never close. What I remember from
that time most, when we were kids, is looking at our feet and my amazment
about your big toes which I never forgot...
I would have loved to look at our toes now sitting in the sand, laughing...
Thank you for showing me how ignorant, stupid and human all comparison is.
Beloved Disha, there is such a strong feeling of being connected in love and
remembering there is only now - only this moment! Thank you wherever you are
now beautiful, happy shining angel

Priti

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HOLLAND

Disha,

We miss you
Much love from Boxmeer

Anja, Edwin and the dogs

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NEW MEXICO, USA

HI Rupda, I have been looking at the website over and over again trying to find some words, I don’t have any.
My heart feels very quiet and achy.
I met Disha in Puna a couple of years ago....
Thank you Disha for seeing me, thank you for the laughter, your love, your sweet sweet sweet heart,

I love you
Mushkan

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MINNESOTA, USA

oh gracious woman - so instantly blessed by your affection, i was. i am so grateful to have had the privelage of meeting you and receiving the showering of your purly loving presence. thank you for resetting me to remember the absurd fragility and divine wonder of loving through this human experience.
in awe of the circle of love! my utter gratitude to you! love - leela

Leela Bergerud
Ala Leela

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GERMANY

Beloved Rupda!
Thank you for putting all this together!
I am in front of my computer crying and still cannot believe it is true.
Although I never have been one of Dish`s close friends as there were already so many,
I always loved her,enjoyed her presence ,beauty,light and incredible warmth.
My last memory is dancing with her on our incredible after-POL-party last January ,being drunk with the Divine...
Unforgettable,I am grateful I met her

She was a friend to me ,who warmed my heart ,made me smile and gave so much trust to me and so many people.
She has been an angel all way through ,wherever her soul is by now,I am sure she shines her beautiful light on everything there is.
Disha,I will never forget you,
thank you for being with us and
so much love and prayers to all of you who were her close circle,family ,Bhakta who miss her day by day
All my heart and love,
Nitya from Cologne

for me disha embodied devotion... i can remember every interaction i ever had with her... because she is always so present and connecting from essence.

my first meeting with disha was when i had taken ayahuasca and was really flying... i was somewhere 'out there' and it was incredibly uncomfortable... it seemed like it was never giong to end... and then disha and bhakta started playing music... it brought me back into the temple and into my body and i felt safe... in the sweetness of beauty and light.

i went to a burn here in sydney last night and it was so special... some of us had memories of disha and others who hadn't met with her were moved into their process around death & love & community.

i have a picture of her in my mind right now... standing with Osho.. looking at all of us here... innocently fascinated by the outpouring of love... loving and supporting all of us through our processes.

i have attached a photo taken by sudha (noodle) at the initiation celebration at samasati in march.

"here i stand in the ashes of who i used to be..."

big love... tamara.

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloved Rupda,

I sent this letter to Bhagawati who informed me of Disha's passing and I went onto your website and read everything and saw all the pictures. I knew Disha, not well, but knew her in Poona and one of the photos that is on the website of her as a child, is exactly as I remember her. I knew Nandan a little, but Nandan's sister very well when I was center leader in Toronto in the early 80's. Her sister was a guest of the Toronto establishment for awhile, before falling in love and marrying her husband. I recently lost another dear beloved sannyasin friend, Sw Harikirti, in Toronto Canada. Only two weeks ago. So all of this fits together. The same energy, the same waves. This [below] is what I wrote to Bhagawati

Only Love
Ma Prem Tao

This is so so beautiful! Unbelievable.
I tried to find the words yesterday when I was writing to you, but it was impossible and still is really. 

The beauty and the perfection and the sadness and the needlessness and the joyous light and incredible issuances, energy and  strength and compassion and unconditional love from the people around Disha.

I just can't find the words and so I could write pages from every angle and it still wouldn't say it.

Thank you so much Beloved Bhagawati, for sending this to me.

Much much Love
Tao

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INDIA - AUSTRALIA

Beloved Rupda

gratitude to you.

Expression came as i learn about Disha's journey.

love
premprabhu

...................................

a blissful soul
at the entrance, ah you
finally arrives home

Beloved Disha

New journey from one body to thousands.

you have always touch everyones heart.

Your leaving body
shaken many centre of being
and refuel them with
fire of love, celebration and meditation.

Your devotion and love for OSHO ...

At the moment i am traveling in Japan.

Vimal tells me of your journey

I look out
an open window
a gate of Japanese temple
wide open
welcomes you beloved

CHAREVETI CHAREVETI CHAREVETI

My gratitude, love you share.

PremPrabhu
(India-Australia)

IRELAND

Hey Rups,
I'm thiunking of you loads, heading to London for
Saturday, I need to be with friends to share the greif
and celebration. sorry that you wont be there . I have
found a song I sing for disha, could you put it up on
the site. You are amazing and the site is something
else and the love felt from it is so special. All love
to you, enjoy the great celebration you are part of in
a big way and pass on my love to all. XXmuds

Beloved Disha,
These words are not my own but I sing them from my
heart, songs are not owned but belong to whoever they
touch and whoever sings them. Thankyou for creating
such love, now I see you in the mountains before me
and the beautiful day and all the beautiful days to
come.

All to soon you've taken your leaving
with no kiss and no last goodbye
and my heart is sorely greiving
that to swift did such sweet love fly

They say the best are first taken
when angels need somebody new
And heaven was not mistaken
when they took someone just like you

See the pale horse on the far shore
How he gallops so quick through the foam
And he feels no thorn or waves roar
He is coming to take you home

And I hope you still dance till the morning
And I hope you still sing to the ocean wide
Though sudden the wave without warning
The tide will take you to the other side
The tide will take you to the other side

So much love surrounds you, surrounds us.
Amy, Muds

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BAY AREA, USA

So sorry to hear about Disha. Hope you are OK. I did not really know her at all so it isn't a big deal for me, but I know you guys were very close and so it must be very hard for you to lose her and so suddenly too. anyway it does happen to all of us and one day I will go and so will you - when its your time its your time. Disha had a great life from what it seems to me, but it is so sad that she didn't get to grow old and she was so young. You know I had an ectopic pregnancy and I would have died if my friend hadn't made me go to hospital - 5 hours later and I would have been dead.
Life is strange.
Stay strong Rups.
I love you
Shobhanxxxxxxx

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

My heart is full of love, eyes full of tears. I dont understand why you have gone but I guess that is not the point. Because of your presence, I felt love so often. Thank you for the gift of your life in mine.
love Smita
Khaknal

==

Beloved Rupda,
Thank you so much for your loving care to keep up the connection for all of us...to share our tears and love for Disha, to have all this love gathered trough the net, to see this beautiful pictures of Disha and how much she is present by looking at them.
Rups,take good care!
I love you,beauty.
Rito

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GERMANY

Disha.

It is a painfull gift that you leave behind,
but it is you that helps me to embrace this.
Again, you touch my heart in the deepest place.

Your spirit leaves waves that will never cease.
THANK YOU

Gyana

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Love My Dear Friend
I watched Disha's photos. I never met her as far as I remember. But, as I saw the photos of Ma Disha on bed in the hospital, my eyes filled with tears. It touched my heart. My salute to Ma Disha
Swami Prem Akash

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Love My Dear Friend
I watched Disha's photos. I never met her as far as I remember. But, as I saw the photos of Ma Disha on bed in the hospital, my eyes filled with tears. It touched my heart. My salute to Ma Disha
Swami Prem Akash

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LOCATION UNKNOWN


Dearest Rupda

My heart goes out to you. And to Baktha and Nandan and Rafia and to all of
us who are so deeply saddened by this unexpected loss.

I only just got back from a 4 day (and night) spell of work with the old
folks, without computer or much phone access.
Hardly had time to digest Disha’s going, it was very hectic at work. Still
she is and has been in the background of everything. Her song: "how long"
kept appearing, making my heart light and very heavy at the same time.

I went to work in such shock after having just heard the news on Friday
morning 6.30.
I can hardly understand it myself why her death shakes me so much.
I have always known Disha as such a lighthearted loving soul so there is no
doubt that she is even more light and bright now.
I mean she is fine, I am sure. Sharing her light with all of us probably.

I just leaves the rest of us with a profound feeling of loss.
It is hard to get why such a beauty has to go so early .
I just downloaded your site and it is beautiful to have such a forum where
there is space to share and to digest and see all those wonderful pictures.
Thank you so much beloved.

One thing that strikes me a lot through her going is the connection of the
heart that we all share. Our love for Him shines through in our love for
each other. That is very touching. I am not much connected to the sannyas
world in these days as you know but still very much a part of it I notice
through this. I feel us as one heart.
Disha has touched the life of so many people in the short life that she
lived. I am glad to have been one of them.

Param wrote so beautifully

me too I was shocked to hear the news.

And now I feel very silent and touched and full of love.
It's a funny thing: I rarely met her, I've never been close to her and yet I
feel like she's my sister. And now she's gone and somehow it's Ok. The love
is still there.

Nothing left to say...

Much much love to you.

Param

Much love and light in these difficult days.
And much love to Turiya as well.
Rani

Disha love

Beloved neighbor and friend
Gentle loving, friendly soul

Thank you for the beauty
Thank you for your songs
Thank you for your purity and innocence

In my eyes your cup was never far from empty
May your longing be fulfilled now
May your light continue to shine.

Be well dear Disha

Rani

==

Dear Rupda,

Thank you for your beautiful webpage dedicated to Disha.

My daughter Vanira and I have met Disha and Baktha a year ago and we cherish our beautiful connection.

We send a message of love for Disha, Baktha, Disha"s mum, all family and friends.

Our hearts go out to you with tender love and enlightened blessings.

lots of love to disha,

i hope she has a peaceful life in heaven.

i d love to meet your dog.

disha is a very very nice person

i would love to see her again but unfortunately i cant

from vanira

Thank you Disha for your generous smiles and bubbling energy

My heart is in tears, flowing over in one love.

Mariani

Dancing Butterflies

Fluttering

On the winds

They meet

In vibrant colours

Immersed in love perfume

Of everlasting flowers

A soundless dance

On rainbow light

Two butterflies embrace

A timeless touch

Fulfilled with joy

A gentle kiss

Of luscious taste

A subtle shift of air

Drifts wings apart

A flowing change

Of moment

Out of sight

One heart alive

In heaven’s endless dream

Mariani Vermeend

==

ITALY

My beautiful little angel,
So much sadness and love. Remembering you in Veggie Villas playing with all the kids and later on the Ranch teaching you french, so much fun and tenderness. For the last time let me share with you our little private joke "My little bunch of dummy chérie".....
Bon Voyage, my darling, you will be in my heart for ever
Bhakta From Italy

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Thank you Rupda for bringing us all together.Didnt know her but she touched
my heart.Please put up this little picture,taken from a tv documentary of
westdeutsche rundfunk. Swami Sureshwar,Arnbruck,Bayrischer Wald.

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COLORADO, USA

Hi Rupda,
Thankyou so much for putting together this page.
We are so moved by the outpouring of love and blessings worldwide.
What an incredible Global Family (and beyond).
We are right there (here) with us all.
What a beautiful heart
We feel blessed to have known her
Much love,
Udgar, Puja and Nicky

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GERMANY

Beloved Rupda,
Thank you for setting up these pages for us all to share our connection to Disha.
It comes to me in waves--disbelief (how could this be?) and sadness and tears...
and I think back on the moments I've spent with you, Disha, so sincere, so welcoming, such a generous spirit--a true beauty.
With love,
Ma Deva Naveena

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AUSTRALIA


Hi Rupda beloved, what you are doing is wonderful. Thank you thank you.

As I was standing by the side of her bed and touching her hand seeing her
chest going up and down with the rhythm of the breathing
machine....numbness, pain, disbelief, so much tenderness, come back come
back, my heart reaching out, hoping...
I have known your sweetness and gentle heart Dish, I have met your joy and
playfulness and I know and honor too the warrior in you, the intensity of
your passion for truth and your absolute commitment to Being.
I miss you
avikal

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloved Disha,

I've listened to your music and voice today, and I am so touched. I'm sure you are singing somewhere, somehow.
Your delicate and powerful beauty radiates now and forever.
I'll always remember.
love
Achintya

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KOREA

I discovered your site through Disha's demise.
It is wonderful. Thank you.
Disha touched the hearts of so many on this planet. May the tears and heartache help us see more clearly and love more freely.

Prem Ketan
Daejeon Korea

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CALIFORNIA, USA

Rupda,

Thank you for creating the link among all of us who love Disha,
and for reminding us of how much we love and are connected to each other,
even when years pass without seeing each other.
Disha's death created a wave that has swept around the world
reminding us that we swim in the same ocean
We are never apart

Pramod
Nevada City, California

==

BAY AREA, USA

What to say...
Not many words come.  Feels more like a state of shock.  We're all going to miss you Deesh.  Your beautiful song and your beautiful being.  
Bon Voyage.....
Love to everyone
Darshano

==

AUSTRALIA

Beloved Dish,

So much Love and Gratefulness for your sweet and generous Being, and for the depth and times and spaces we have shared.

Samved

==

AUSTRALIA

Beloved Disha,

I didn’t know you well
But your grace and loveliness shone
For all to see
Our last moment of eyes meeting
Sits clearly in my heart
And now
Your are part of us all
Merged in us all

Your death is our life

See how many people love you
See what beautiful moments
Your life was in these photos
In all of these words for you

I have a son. Raven.
You know him. Near your age
Nandan, there are no words
For the pain of a mother
Losing a daughter, a son.
The gulf is too big for me.
Except to be in the space of ..
What a gift she must be in your life
Even now. And knowing how she is
Loved must somehow soothe your
Heart.

Bhakta, I know that Disha is the
Love of your life. And when I heard,
It was to you that my heart and tears
Went, and are.

Thank you Disha,
Thank you for your life
and for your Death
which is lighting a huge and beautiful
Fire under all of us, drawing the “kids”
Of your generation, and the mothers,
Fathers, mas and swamis, lovers and friends
Of mine, here, waiting with our tears,
With our love, to see you
To be with you, Nandan and Bhakta
To be One.

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HOLLAND

I was shocked when I was told the news about Disha‚s death in such extremely sad circumstances. It was truly heartbreaking to read the story about the events leading up to her passing away while so many people have moved heaven and earth to try and rescue her.

My thoughts traveled back to my stay with Bhakta and Disha in their little paradise in the rainforest in 2000, to their kind hospitality, the warm welcome I got and the pleasant atmosphere in their home. I did not get to know Disha well during this short stay, but I do remember her striking beauty that was shining from the inside and thinking how lucky my cousin was to find her on his path.

Yesterday discovered this impressive website dedicated to her and I got to know her a little better by looking at the many pictures of her and reading the many beautiful thoughts of Disha from people around the globe who love, cherish and now miss her so much and I failed to hold back my tears because such a nice and lovable person had passed away and also because I felt a very strong and moving community spirit. My heart goes out to all of you who are close to Disha and will now have to move on without her, and especially to you Bhakta.

Bhakta, I think that I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you are going through right now, but I know that you are being surrounded both physically and in spirit by the many people who love you and Disha and who wish that they could take away some of your pain and I hope that you feel comfort in that. I wish you a lot of strength, love and peace when you bid Disha farewell, celebrate her life and when you move on without her by your side.

You are in my thoughts!

Big hug!

Claire

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FRANCE - AUSTRALIA

Dear Rupda

WOW......what a beautiful site...I am in France as this has all happened....Wishing that i was there for this amazing celebration of a wonderful person.

Disha
never had said a bad word about any one and brought so many smiles to my life..I can stop thinking about her and how she will be missed...i send all my love to her and Bacta...

lots of love Tarang xxx

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