BAY AREA, USA

So many tears, such deep sadness and so much love. So hard to believe that
such a beloved has so suddenly left us. I long for you and all my friends to
just be together and cry and hold each other. I love your constant flow of
emails Rupda. So much love to you. My tears are out of control.
Love
Yogen
The rest of my precious family sends love.

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SANTE FE, USA

Rups,

News of Disha is crushing. I... I, will think of her
and her family and light a candle. I pray for Peter
too. Is there anything I can do?

....wonder where you are?

Lov you,
Rupi (Rupam)

P.S. You are a good woman to keep us all informed.
Thank you!!

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IRELAND

Hey Rups,
Lovely to get your words and picture, I have been thinking of you these past few hours. What and unbeleivable situation. It will be very strange to see Disha on the page of angels. She was an angel of the highest degree.
Loads of love to you, I feel very close to everyone and very connected and am happy to be part of this family however far away we all are and however long we have not been in touch, we are bonded and joined and part of each others lives. You play a big part in keeping the connections. I am sorry I never had the chance to sit and play guitar and sing with Disha. I am sorry that she never got the chance to give birth and love her child. Life can be so unfair.
I am thinking of you and sending love, xxxmuds amy (Mudita)

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BAY AREA, USA

Hello rups
I feel so moved, candles are lit and prayers will continue to be said.
Although I know Disha, we have not had a chance to become close.
I see her as a shinning star and someone I always thought would be there through it all... and she shall with her beauty,wisdom and light.
And you beloved I send you lots of love thank you for keeping us all connected
blessings to you may the light continue to shine
enchanted dreams
kim (Nishi)

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SEATTLE, USA

Rups,
Oh my God!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe this news.........please tell me where she is at now I'm not sure about the time zone - is
she on life support still?
What's happening?..........I love you dearly - I wish we could all be together again.
Gyana

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SWITZERLAND

give me news about disha please as soon they come

to night we did a toghether night with meera shivananda and devi and cranti for disha

sending massive love
krishna

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BAY AREA, USA

Hello beloved Rupda,

I just ran into Pramada, who gave me news of Dish.
Would you please keep me posted?

I love you and I miss you,

Teerth

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OREGON, USA

Rupda - Nicko (Gogo) has been forwarding me your 2 emails. I'm really bummed but just wanted to reach out to you and let you know i'm thinking of everyone big time.

love ya!

-Dive
pradeep

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BAY AREA, USA

Hello Rupda,

Today we were over at Yogen and Leena's and read your e-mail about Disha. We are both totally shocked. We have lit candles and are holding her close in prayer and in our hearts....

What to say?......

much love to you from both of us,
Lily & Paritosho

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INDONESIA

Oh my Disha! I cannot believe this.
My love and heart goes out to her.
It's early noon time here in Bali.
I have my candle on all day.
Love Dalia

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OREGON, USA

beloved Rupda
I am sitting here in utter shock over the news about Disha--I wanted to call you to check in but don't have your number in my temporary address book. ...it is so very sad that all other words fail me.....I see the impermanence of our fragile lives and the futility of big plans. I love you,
Nirala

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OREGON, USA

I have been sitting here listening to Disha's CD and watching the site you put up. I wanted to say thank you for doing that. Bindu called me this morning and I had been looking around for something, some news, so it was really good to have that. I am pretty stunned and heartbroken. And I am quite sure you knew Disha much better than I did, so my heart is with you. Much much love.

Jess

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

I know
a few of her songs..
I'll sing all day,
to help the way...
ciao
S.

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ITALY

I am in shock as I have just heard the news and cannot
understand why....Why Disha? I feel far away and
helpless right now. Not able to call anyone jst yet
since I am in north italy not on moble or reachable
except emails.
Where are you? Are you there?Pleaselet everyone know I
am there in my heart and preyers as we all let go of
Disha right now.My mind wonders with heaps of
questions Why Why WHy? Any chance you canlet m eknow
more if there is anything new to hear please let me
know.
Thankyou for the emails.
Our hearts beat as one.Love to all that are there and
to Bhakta from me please
Love kenny (Kendra)

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COLORADO, USA

Thank you so much for the photo Rupda. And for setting up the forum.
We had a beautiful gathering last night at the Osho Meditation Center in
Boulder, Colorado. We sang like we haven't sung before for a long time, and
we showed the video that she and Bhakta made (it's on her CD - you just have
to download it to a computer).
Such a beautiful soul who touched so many people.
I feel such a depth of sadness for Nandan in these days.
Love is truly all there is.
Anupam

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GERMANY

Hi Rups..

I have put the message on the
pathoflove.de
and
sannyas-online.de

Wish her a good journey..

Love
Subh

==

Dearest Rupda,
We are so very sad here to hear of Disha's passing. What a tragedy. I keep
thinking of Nandan and how terrible it must be for her to be flying to
Australia now.
Much love, dear one.
Avinasho

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SWEDEN


Beloved Disha
You are one of the happy kids!
You are the one with the big smile for everyone…
You are a daughter, a girlfriend, a lover…
You are a spirit that ignites a loving laughter in our hearts…
Love is always with you…

Jivan Kavya

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SPAIN

Beloveds all over the world,

the news overwhelm all of us, also here on Ibiza and Mallorca. Disha will
be so dearly missed by the whole community. She must have been around
already lifetimes - and whenever I saw her my heart just flew out to this
wonderful being.

Nandan - I don't know what to say. For mothers this is the worst case
scenario come true - the loss. Because part of ourselves lives in our
children.
I want to hold you and lighten your pain which will be there - knowing or
not knowing that death is just a transition...

Much much much love and thank you, Disha, for shining your light on so many
people!

Ma Atmo Anasha

==

UK

Dearest Disha, Beautiful friend,
Im so sad..I feel like Ive lost a part of me.
tears keep falling...
and a deep ache in my heart.
my soul..
But also I feel you..
now, more than ever..
your here
living inside of me...
in a strange way I get to see more of you.

disha I still feel you...so much..
like I am under your giant, soft, velvet wings...
you are holding all of us..
and I know you are smiling...
you did it honey..
you have your child now

I love you ..your friend for eternity..
love asha

CAROLINA, USA

Thanks Rups..
You truly are a saint keeping us all updated.

And what to say about Disha? I haven't seen her in ten years or so, but we spent so many precious moments together growing up that will always be treasured. She was such a sweet special person - so tragic, sad, and untimely...

Disha, you'll always have my love...

Rupda, I love you,
-Dickon

==

CALIFORNIA, USA

Rupda! Lots of hugs and kisses to you too. Although your news has been
quite depressing lately, I appreciate being informed. Gosh, I can't
believe this is happening - first Santosh being ill and now this.

Take care Rups...

Love,
Ramapriya

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ITALY

Have been crying since this a.m. when first news reached me.
So much love for Disha just overflowing.
Knowing her since always. As a kid and a glowing maturing being, a gorgeous woman a delicate and powerful soul.
Then discovering her deeper in Path of Love and even more during the 9 years work together with Faisal.
Her depth and clarity and relentless longing for Turth and Love!!

I was not a close personal friend...but she is so so close to my heart.
I cannot say more.
I am shocked, outraged also...understanding might come, later.

Just love and sorrow. And more love.
prem Upchara

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SAN DIEGO, USA

To Disha

Tears and Tears for losing you so young.

It breaks my heart.

You are a great and humble soul.

You gave so much to the people in your life.

I received only love from you.

I am very grateful to have known you.

All my prayers and love for your journey.

Vikas (Ed Jerum)

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SANTA FE, USA

What News! I met Disha when she was very little.....WHAT A SPIRIT and WHAT A BEAUTY!
will keep her always in loving memory
OM
Chandrika akna Ma Deva Dipo
now in santa fe, nm usa, but knew her from Munich way back, Poona and the Ranch.

Chandrika

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BAY AREA, USA

Disha's prescence made all our lives more beautiful and gracefull.
Her eyes were always filled with love.
We feel amazingly blessed to have known her.

We love you Deesh!!

Pagalo and Vedi

So sorry for this untimely death
and I am sending endless prayers
for the ones close to her now
having their heart pierced by this tragic event.

With love
Rene (Ma Deva Kalpana)

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COLORADO, USA

I'm so full of tears. I love her and feel so touched by that love that she held out to me ...and all of you and the connection between us. To all of you I send my love out to you with gratitude and feeling so lucky to feel this and be here. I love you Disha

Nirodha

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HAWAII, USA

Thanks for creating this beautiful tribute for Disha. i talked with Kim in Byron last night which felt good and healing . I lit a candle and remembered my sweet friend. At 3.00 a.m. I woke up in pain my leg had gone into a cramp and noticed the candle had gone out so I got up and relit it.

This morning I received a call that Joerg, Anubhavo who had been my lover on the Ranch was found dead in his apartment in Berlin, it seems he died on Tuesday of a heart attack. He had been living with AIDS for some time. As you can imagine I am totally blown away to lose 2 such dear friends in the same week. As I surfed the various links that your site connects to I felt the deep bond of family that I feel with so many, even though I don't get the opportunity to see and be with them, we are spread throughout the globe in a web of love and support.
love to you

prakash

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WASHINGTON, USA

Rupda,

Disha sits heavy on my heart, sadness at lifes' tragic reality that we
somehow must painfully cherish....a blessed woman, her spirit so passionate
and joyous. I have not seen her since the Ranch, and I feel sad that I
will never have the opportunity to greet her again ~ always having had the
belief that we have time....it seems to be slipping away from us...

I grieve for her and those who love hers' loss... and I set her free, her
journey continues... Blessed Be, Disha!

Peace,
Meag (Soni)

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BAY AREA, USA

goodbye dear sweet Disha
you are an angel of the highest order
one of the brightest lights in Osho's chandelier
i will really miss you
go with God

LOVE

thank you so much for this page. Was frozen in shock and pain for hours today - your mail finally made the dam break.

I'm stting here in tears of grieve and love and gratitude ...

Beautiful Disha - your pure heart and love touched me often so deeply, as so many of us ... - you carried the essence of pol and Osho so much, so much - so inspiring and igniting, so alive and shining ...

Sweet Disha, i cannot really conceive you are gone - pain and love in my heart, I say: I love you and I'm so grateful to have met you so many times on the path in realness and truth ...

love and tears and love, all my love

Jayant

DISHA LIVED A LIFE THAT CAN BE HELD AS A BEAUTIFUL EXAMPLE OF A FULL AND LOVING LIFE UNPOSTPONED.
CERTAINLY WE CAN FEEL THE DEEP SADNESS OF LOSING ONE OF OUR TRIBES INTIMATES BUT LET US ALSO HAVE HER SPIRIT SPUR US ON TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, LOVING WITH RADICAL ABANDON AND SINGING AS IF OUR LIVES DEPENDED ON IT- THEY DO!
THIS IS THE DISHA THAT HER FRIENDS HAVE COME TO KNOW- NO FUTURE. NO PAST. BUT AT THIS MOMENT A BEAUTIFUL PASSING THAT CAN BE CELEBRATED EVEN AS THE TEARS FLOW...
DISHA...YOU DID IT !!!

SWAMI HARIDEVA

I love this picture so much ... Because it's Disha, because it's Osho and
because if you do not know either of them you fall in love with innocence,
kindness and the divine.

I know your heart must be so tender. I send you so much love Ruppy. I wish
you were here so that I could give you a big cuddle.

Please give my love to Turiya also.

Here in Samasati it all seems so unreal ... The community and dear friends
of Disha are a true reflection of Osho's legacy. We are all moving as a
great oneness in heart and practicalities.

Lots of love Rupda

Jyoti

I am devastated. My heart is broken.

I spoke to Disha last night before going to sleep, sending her all my
love and strength to help her through. I am so very,very sad...for her,
for Bhakta, for Nandan, for all
of us who have had the honor to know such a Beauty...and for all those
who never will.

My beloved, Kaveen (swiss) and Haritama (english), who are out of reach
of a computer right now, have asked me to send all their Love to Nandan
and Bhakta.

We are stunned.

There are no more words for me right now... only tears.

We are an amazing family.

Thank you Rupda for giving us the opportunity to see these beautiful
photos and be in touch with hearts around the world.

What a legacy she has left.

Sending love,

Kailash

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BRAZIL

dear rupda
abadha told me this morning and i´m still not beliving
the beautfull one has gone... i fell so much
lots of love love for all of you who has been so close to her
i send all my love and tears
love you my dear

Anbho

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BAY AREA, USA

Beloved Disha,
I know you are in the light - at home - I send all my love to you,
thank you for travelling part of the path together with me...

Namastee

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BAY AREA, USA

Sister Disha,

Its been a while since I last saw you. When was it, exactly? Satta reminded me that you visited with us when Nali (now was little. She think that we have a picture of you holding her. I also remember that time in San Diego when we spotted each other and shared 'that look'. Too funny!

I just wanted to write to you to tell you that I miss you. And that I love you. Always will.

I love that we have such an easy friendship, you know what I mean? Nothing between us but the knowledge and feeling of kinship. I love that I have always had that with you.

Well, I hope to see you again. Until then, I will be content with my memories of laughter shared with you. Thanks for being my buddy.

Peace and love to you, always.

Your good friend,

Jason (Madhav)

I have so many memories of laughter with Disha. I see her smile always. My heart goes out to those closest to her now. To her mom, Nandan. I'm so glad you put this together Rupda so we can all be together in this sudden loss. It feels so tragic. Sweet angel girl called back to where the angels live. I want to share more later. It's so good to see everyone here.

thank you Rupda sweetheart
all my love

~ binu

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FROM THE AIRPLANE HEADING TO ABU DHABI

Beloved Disha,
I know you are in the light - at home - I send all my love to you.
Thank you for travelling part of the path with me.
Namastee

Tarab

==

BAY AREA, USA

Beloved Rupda

Thank you for the opportunity to share...

Beloved Disha
We love you.
You are the embodiment of our beloved Osho's dream, embodied no more.
Disha, we adore you.
Our hearts beat as one in joy and tears, dancing madly, we are one with you.
Disha!
I love you.
I promise you
No more holding on!
You have given us the gift of you.
I love you all.
I want to say
I love you all
Love,
Bodhi

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BAY AREA, USA

Beloved Disha,

you are love, you are light, you are laughter, you are dance and you are song.

Thank you for shining your beautiful light upon us while you were in this body, everyone will miss you so much. But for some reason it was your time to go. I deeply feel that you are surrounded by immense love and light wherever your precious soul is right now. I am very grateful to have known such a beautiful being like you and a part of me will always hold you close to my heart. May you be free in love and light forever and always . . . .

Sudha

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SPAIN

Beloved Disha, beauty, light and devotion...
A lot of light for you in your journey, we are with
you, singing with you the eternal song of our hearth,
send much love from Ibiza

Prasuna, Mouji, Samvega

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FRANCE

Beloved

Your sudden departure from our embodied world is one of the biggest Zen Blow striking my Heart

How much you touch me is now revealed Disha, you are to me closer than a sister, you are part of me, part of my life like one of the most Blessed child of Osho..

How can you go now????

You are Beloved to so many of the family.. you are our Lady Di, Our Queen, our Princess, our child, our sister, our Beloved, you are the Blessed One,  Angel of Love touching so many hearts through yours sweet sweetness of Being our Deesh…

I would love so much to be celebrating with all your lovers, my Disha, my darling

I am holding on to your voice to your many sweet songs and am grateful to you to have at least left us that gift

Ooh Disha…. beyond words in the energy we
meet
silently
blissfully

Fly .. fly high…

kavisho

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SWITZERLAND

My heart is full of gratefulness and love in the memory of Disha.
She is truly an example of a life lived in grace and unconditional love.
An old soul that brought beauty and light and showed us the way to freedom.

Love and Light on your way HOME Disha!

Kamadevi

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BAY AREA, USA

Rups-

Thank you for once again being the tie that binds, the glue holding our web of beautiful people together.

Disha:
Smiling, dancing, laughing, singing, loving, giving.
That is how I picture her. That is how she was.
Disha was such an incredibly generous, caring, and intensely loving person.
Truly a being of light come to shine upon those who came into her presence.
She will be sorely missed, but more importantly, completely cherished
and held painfully dear in the memories of all who knew her and
loved her.
I send you all my love, Dish, on the next leg of your journey!

Sona

we know disha from childhood to womanhood
and now, we know disha as our precious angel
singing alongside our other beloveds in only one sky.

beings moms to our daughters, binu, and amy,
our hearts and souls are with nandan,
and with all the extraordinary family and friends
of delicious disha ...
with deep love and prayer, bhasa and hina
and much love and appreciation to rupda

bhasa

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HOLLAND

Beloved all, It's heart breaking to hear the news of Disha's death. It leaves such a gap. I would love to be in a fysical room with all of you but this way will do too. Disha, so beautyfull so full of life, so much love. She must have been so happy to be pregnant and it feels so unfair that this costed her her life. Disha was one of the many of us who wanted (as I did) to become a mother and it felt right ....what to say All I do now is sent her my heart and my love. A big hug to all of you! Thank you Rupda, you're great! my heart is with you and her other close friends, ofcourse with Baktha....Lots of love and light
So strange I got married yesterday while Dish was dying....

Domi

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GERMANY

i am very shocked. disha was in munich about three weeks ago and we couldn't find the time to see each other so we phoned and joked about that she'll be back next year and we could meet then. never postpone, everything happenes now! disha was one of my oldest friends, we were on the same plane when we first went to poona in '77. she was pure energy. even though she wasn't part of my day to day life i feel a great loss! all of you out there take care of yourself and your loved ones and stay connected!
lets dedicate the 2007 reunion to disha and we'll all come!!!

swami deva somen

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BAY AREA, USA

I'm in total shock since Pagalo called me about her death this morning to my work.

Looking at her pictures smiling and full of life made me sadder.

I remember a long time ago, she was taking lessons of Zennis in the Ashram. One day she was very frustrated and told us "It's not fun to take tennis lessons because more I learn, I see I suck. I am paying to feel frustrated and becomeing less meditative!"
I remembered her telling this just this Wednesday while I was playing tennis so badly and made me smile.

And now she is gone ...

Sending you so much love.

I am still processing, it is very difficult, what i have processed is that i desperately feel for Nandan and Bhakta and want to send them and everyone who is hurting, loving, remembering, celebrating, laughing, singing, crying a huge hug and a heartful of love.

Soo much love sweet Disha, see you back soon...

And to you of course,

a heart full of love

Chetana

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SEATTLE, USA

Oh! Disha sweet sweet heart

We first met 27 yrs ago where you were so in love with my son who was just born in Poona. You loved cradling him every chance our paths would meet on zen wall. I still remember your little cousin Garima who spoke only German then. Both you and Gyana left such an imprint for me at both your tender age. You kids were the best part of Poona for me.
My sweet, bonvoyage and thanks for leaving so much of your beauty & love behind & waking me up to how fragile and wild this gift of life truly is.
with tears in beauty of you

anutosh

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GERMANY

Thank you Disha
You have lived Osho's dream to perfection.
Have a good journey and thanx for visiting us.
Much love

Harimurti, Suravi, Lola & Lily

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UK

Disha,

I'm too shocked to find words. I borrowed these.

Love....

Death is not the extinguishing of the light,
It's putting out the lamp because the dawn has come.

You're missed.

Love and a hug to you all.

Gulab.

==

COLORADO, USA

Here in Boulder we had a meditation last night (Thurs) in which we put Disha's picture on the alter in the main room at the Osho Boulder Meditation Center and had a celebration, meditation for Disha. About 20 people from the community showed up, there would probably have been many more if they all knew about it, it was so sudden. Samir, Suvarna, and I played music and the roof flew off, so much energy, so beautiful to feel her, and the sadness mixed with so much joy.

love
Jamie

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CANADA

Beloveds...
Although I have no words I just wanted to send you a message filled with love and tears.
Still in shock and disbelief...but existence has its own timing and wisdom, and definitely does not always seem understandable and “fair”.
...last night I held Disha in my heart, songs and prayers all night through. Tomorrow we have a concert here in Montreal and we’ll be singing for her.

We’ll be back in Germany on Tuesday and then I’ll give you call...

I love you both with all my heart and I feel extremely grateful and honoured to enjoy your presence in my life.
Deva (Deva Premal)

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STH. CALIFORNIA, USA

I'm sitting here crying with a fullness & sweetness. Disha, you are simply a beauty and a love. The kind of loving you are is the alive-right-now kind. Body or no body! From the day you and Nandan appeared in Poona, I delighted in your overflowing happiness. Your friendliness. The Love that you lived just flowed simply and naturally. Thank you for being you. What a great life!

Sheela

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SPAIN

Hi Beloved One,
Isn't life strange? I can tell you truly that
yours truly doesn't have a clue. We're all pretty
numb and touched in a way that only Disha could do. I
am 'in wonder' when I feel how much she meant to me,
Anasha, and to the whole Osho Sangha. I bow down to
her with joy and a smile on my face. We met in Pune
1, were friends at the Ranch, and then she lived with
Anasha and I in Italy for a year before we moved back
to Pune 2, where we were next-door neighbors in the
Ashram until 91. Since then, we've stayed in touch
from the distance, and met many times in many places.
I can not remember one time that I did not enjoy being
with her- not one! We had such a beautiful
connection- in fact she is one of the most
unconditionally loving friends I have ever had. I'm
sad, for sure, but I am touched so uniquely by her
that something inside me is expanding right now. I
mean, nobody talked to me the way Disha did, and it
was all positive energy...nothing necessariiy profound
or deep (sometimes it was- ha!), but we had fun. I am
saying all this not just for me- because being so
close to her all those years in the Commune I saw
first hand the impact Deesh had on thousands of other
sannyasins. (Sounds like an exageration at first, but
I'm sitting here thinking back and around and
remembering and I know it is true. Hundreds of scenes
and faces flash before my eyes.) She was a lover of
life that was touching eveyone around her, in every
niche and corner of the commune, no matter what age,
interest, job, or type of person you were- you
probably knew and liked, if not loved-Disha.
For me, she represents Zorba the Buddha, the child,
the sage, the lover, the friend, the mystic, the
singer, wise woman, and the best of what Osho was
leading us towards. Like she might say 'words don't
touch it, maybe music will'. One regret that I have
is that I will not be at her burning celebration- we
talked before how I would build her fire, or she would
sing for me. But the next fire I enjoy will be for
Disha. I hope her passing brings us all a little
closer- talking to some of you, and reading things
others are sharing and feeling about her and what is
happening for you, reminds me how much richness we
have lived together. My wish on her funeral pyre is
that this extremely unique friend of us all will
through her dying so young, help us come closer
together. I would love that. Disha, you were
incredible to be with. Thanks a lot. Your friend
always, Anubuddha

==

SPAIN

Disha, beloved
sweet, so sweet soul,
your departure leaves me in a gap of no-mind
after a morning of tears. Tears for the impossibility
to see you, smell you, touch you again; tears for
Nandan's pain and Bhakta's pain; tears for my longing
to be in the Sangha again, but feeling our
connectedness. And tears for not to be able to be at
your burning celebration.
And then, after all these tears, the peace; the mind
stopping asking 1000 questions, wanting to understand;
just this certitude that your death is a mystery, will
stay a mystery...
"to be lived, not to be solved..."
May you be at peace, may you be happy, may you be
in the light. Thank you from the bottom of my heart
for having let me smell your sweet fragrance.

Anasha (French- beloved of Bu):

ps: Rupda beloved Angel
1000 thanks for making Disha's death so real for
all of us far away from Byron. love, Anasha

pps: Rupda, I will write again soon. Thanks sooo
much- even before this, many X's I am thinking of you
with love. I want to have you help me with our work a
bit. We are in touch. love and a warm hug,
Anubuddha (we're still in Spain and will be in Goa
this Jan/Feb)

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BAY AREA, USA

Beloved Dish…

You lovely star, you shined brightly on this earth, sharing your love and touching my hearts.
Where ever you are now, in whatever form or no-form, I am sure you keep on shining, loving and laughing.
I hold you in my heart and feel grateful to have known you and have shared of this life with you.

Paritosho

==

LOCATION UNKNOWN

Disha

There are so many gifts in the world.
They come and go.
It's really nice when we notice one.
For us, I mean.
For them too.
And I don't really think the total count ever decreases either.
There's too much abundance.

Ravidasa

I saw Disha dancing after she ascended to Osho's
presence. It looked to me as if Miten was her Beloved
Greeter. He lovingly embraced her and then took her to
Osho. Osho seemed to pick her out of a long stream of
people who were approaching him. He absorbed her
completely, in his loving hug. He seemed so very happy
to be with her again! And she with him. They became
One.

Blessings of Love, Liberation and complete
Enlightenment, beloved Disha!

(And for us all.)

Ma Prem Anupama

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CANADA

Rupda,

thanking you for the wonderfull energy being put in for Disha.
She will be very missed, our own Princess Diana.

Much Love,

Tarpana

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Thanks Rupda for all you are doing to get the word out. Disha packed a lot of song, love and laughter into her short life. She was unique in the living and even in the leaving of this puzzling world. She was that old soul in a kid's body, ever kind and caring. Although I never had children of my own, I feel like many adult sannysins must feel from Poona 1, the Ranch and onwards, that Disha, like many of you kids that were there, where our kids. We love you all! And the loss of one of your bright lights today rends deep my heart.

It helped my grieving today, to write the following poem about Disha. It was inspired by a fond memory of her skydiving days. Now she's on the biggest sky dive of them all. She's just ahead of us in the cue. Sooner or later we'll be celebrating with her in great fullness of the free fall.

Here's my poem for Dish:

Farewell, dear skydiver.
Fall through ever rising, endless skies
With eternity's twinkle in an eyeless eye.

Watch in and within us
>From time to timeless time
Come abide with us, abide sublime!

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Hugs, and celebration for all of you,

Arjuna
(the singing guard at Drive By)
(talktome@hogueprophecy.com)

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ISRAEL

I just know Disha From taking care of the events in the commune in the last years,
, giving her the mic or talking to her and arranging for her to sing
I was amazed from her beauty and from the way she sang,
from the grace from the love from the beauty
im touch to see all this love that is happening on this page
and all this big familiy coming together again,
thank you Disha for doing that
wish you to go on with your song where ever you are,
and u will and we all feel it now,
your song is singing
your beauty is shine
and your love is within us .

Kohra

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HAWAII, USA

Beloved Disha

Thank you!

You have and always will be a shining inspiration for my heart to open wide.

I am startled by your untimely death.

And so now I find myself reviewing many treasured memories and extended moments. Times and experiences that have forever changed me - I like to think for the better! Disha you are so much a part of my personal unfolding into who I am today. Both your youthful enthusiasm and your uncanny maturity (back in your 20's) have touched me deeply while experiencing your devoted participation and sharing of yourself in The Path Of Love. I was unaware until now of just how profoundly you have touched and inspired me during that time. I have not seen you or connected with you since that experience which was some 8 years ago. How time flies. I don't know who you have evolved into being during the past eight years, but I see how many love you and that in itself is testimony.

And so I am caught off guard by the suddenness of your critical physical state and swift passing from life in this form. I find myself in the throws of grief intertwined with a deep appreciation of who you are to me. It makes me aware of how many people and friends throughout my life - especially my Sannyas life -have led me to be courageous, and how very few I have thanked directly; you included. You have encouraged me to open my heart wide when I could have gotten by with a whole lot less. I trust that you are able to sense all the love pouring your way. I so hope that you can! My heart swells as the awareness of my greater Sannyas family takes shape by your sudden death. I thank you for that and much more, sweet, beautiful, vibrant Disha.

Images twirl and dance in mind and heart of your laughter and smiles and even the grace and beauty of your sometimes heart-wrenching tears. Many evenings of your joyful singing as we waited for Osho's discourses. A string of images, alive as if they occurred yesterday, come to the forefront of my awareness as I stumble from activity to activity, realizing I am in a state of shock.

At times I struggle to let you go. Other moments it is so easy I am stunned. I bow down to you Disha in utter gratefulness. You will always be vibrantly alive and dancing in our hearts. Mine for sure!!!

Love and aloha,

Varsha in Kula

PS: So much love to Bahkta and Nandan and all those especially close to Disha.

And love to all who I have not seen or heard from in so many years. You are all alive in my heart. It would be lovely to reconnect and come closer again.

Thank you Rupda for bringing so many of us so close. It is very heartwarming to read the growing collection of love messages to Disha. Thank you!!!

What a beautiful tribute to Disha you have given us. Thankyou. In my stunned way I couldn't touch into the love and loss I have been suck in for 2 days. Your memorium and your friends' emails have opened my heart to us all. Thankyou beloved Osho. This is just another reminder of what we have received. Now my heart is able to share again and help hold the grief and shock in all of us in this community of Byron Bay. My love and thoughts go out to you Nandan and Bhakta.

Bubula

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HAWAII

I just got a call from my Dad who is in India.......................
Disha is no more...................
This beautiful girl with so much love and life inside of her is no more with us.
I am in Shock as I don't have a clue what happened to her.
I loved her very much and still do.
My heart aches and I can't stop crying.
I am very happy that loved one were around her with she left.

P.S. Rupda, thank you so much for the work that you put in for letting us all be connected even without a commune.
Love Love Love

mouna

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CALIFORNIA, USA

To Disha and all beloved friends,

What a light you were, and will be forever in our hearts. This morning here in Nevada City, California, hearing the news, I am nearly breathless. Disha, precious one, may the love that you have shared with us all, surround you in this final journey. You are a gem that has forever touched my life, thousands of miles away, and years since being together. And to Nandan, and all Disha's loved ones, my heart is with you, as I light a candle here in the foothills of the Sierra's in California......

always in love,
Erin (Ma Prem Maitri)
www.erinrobbinsstudio.com

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PORTLAND, USA

Disha and I are practically the same age, less then 3 months appart. She was a dear sister to me those first few months on the Ranch, when she was one of the only KIDS I could have a meaningful conversation with, due to my lack of English language skills. I was very blessed by her presence then, and I'm truly blessed by my memories of her now.

What a deep soul, what a beautful spirit, what an amazing being.

My heart is blown open.

Thank you, Disha.

With all my love,
Felix

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

At 3 pm I lit the flame I lit the flame
it burnt all night in your name in your name
and I saw your spirit flying high
over sea over sky
and the music of your name will never die
Disha Disha
You held my hand, you held my heart you held my will
on the path of love your patience held the presence still
and I felt the love pour through your eyes
touching deep the great and wise
and your music is a song of living light
Disha Disha
into the mystery you go
the ocean receiving your river
and all of us here are your mirrors
emptying all our reflections
into the heart of the One
Disha

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloved Disha and I grew up together around Osho and the commune, even though I was already 23 when I first met her. Remembering her is remembering all the joy, laughter and celebration that I experienced being close to the master. We will miss her dearly, those close to her more intensely. My heart goes out to Nandan and Bhakta. In these moments of tears it is difficult to see what God's plan is, but obviously the call from existence was stronger than her staying here with us. We all shed alot of tears in losing such a beloved friend, but this morning the trees seem to smile to me in the joy of being one with Deesh. All my love to all my dear friends abroad that I haven't had the pleasure to cross paths with for too many years. I hope that we can meet again before the next call from existence.

Pankaj, aka clown punky

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GERMANY

beloved Disha,
tears, tears and more tears...
but knowing you are in the hands of the divine spirit lifts my heart above the pain.
You truly reveal to me the meaning of this ride we are on.
Thank you for your beauty, tenderness and innocence.
I feel with love for all the friends and their hurting souls.

PUJA

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

So much sky in my heart today
Its you!

Sweet one

Into the higher blues
And Joy!

Disha dearest
So much in Love

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LOCATION UNKNOW

Rupda, thanks so much for doing this. I found this picture on my hard
disk but have no idea who took it. And here is something for Disha.

Beloved Disha

You are in my heart
And I cherish
The last time we met
When we just smiled
At each other.

I am sad and I miss you
But I know
You are all right
Where you are.

All my love
Preeti

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INDONESIA

Beloved Rupda,

Thanks for creating such a beautiful website!

Farewell, beloved Disha!

I shall always keep you in my heart
Which you leaped into when we first met
at the beginning of your journey.
All my love,

Bhagawati

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GERMANY

Oh Disha, I've cried so many tears, cried out my love for you.
You were like an angel here on earth and somehow I must have thought angels never die.
I've never met anyone as total, loving and sweet as you and I have not a single memory of meetings with you where I have not seen your fantastic smile from the depths of your being.Disha, I love you and I'm immensly grateful for having had these deeply touching meetings with you.
I will always keep you in my heart, always.
I'm so grateful for this website which lets us all feel this intense togetherness in times of love, loss and transformation Rupda. Thank you.
Bhakta, I send you all my love from the depths of my heart.

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UK

Hey Rupda, thank you so much for getting this together, it is so wonderful to see how rich our global community is. I am in Bristol, U.K
I have had such a journey over the years with Dish, so many moments ... It is hard to know what to say.
Oh dish! ... I can’t believe it ...
I have loved you,
laughed with you,
cried with you,
screamed at you,
danced with you,
hugged you,
hated you,
admired you,
envied you,
prayed with you ...
Path of loved with you ...
God what a journey ... So many moments, the tears flow ... I can see you dancing ... I can see your eyes, so much depth ...such a presence.
thank you ... I am sending you on as I know you would want me to with love and blessings and so much gratitude for all that we have shared together xxx

Kalakeli

Disha was the most beloved of all the beloveds of Osho.
She was the child of the sannyas world, and loved more than any other person I can think of.
She lived Osho in her totality, her love and her joy.

All night I have been waking up and seeing her smiling face. Such an evolved being can only be enjoying the next adventure.

And we celebrate her beauty with our tears.

Loving you in gratitude,
Shunyo

LOCATION UNKNOWN

Beloved Rupda,
I would love to write some words to our Beloved Disha.Is this the way to participate in the circle of friends?
And to YOU - Thank you thank you so much that you make all this possibel for us - all this wonderful photos. All my LOVE to you.

Beloved Disha,
you are gone so early. So hard to let this really in.
I am ever so greatful having met you in my life on the Path in Realness of Love and Truth. Your sincerety and longing for our real home has always striked my heart. I am praying for you in love and stillness.
Thank you from my heart for being with us and sharing your Love and understanding,your warm and deep heart. I will always remember you.
In deep gratefulnes

Avijja

Disha was a delightful child, and as a teenager in later years, always smiling and kind-hearted. I feel, with love, for those who were closest to her, and will miss her. Thank you for sharing this sad news.

With love

Kavita in Fremantle

I am not a kid in age but I continue to remain an eternal kid. I am not kidding.

I express my heart-felt feelings of Love for Disha!

Swami Chaitanya Keerti
Osho World, New Delhi

ITALY

Beloved Disha,

I have had only a few weeks together with you, loving you, being loved by you, singing with you, sharing this innocent space of childlike love and laughter...one of the happiest moments of my life.
I am still looking into your wonderful eyes and I see god and I want to thank you...
I just wish I could be at your celebration. I always remember singing with you for Raghuvira's death celebration. Your light is shining!
Tears and love from Tuscany

Gandharaja

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TURKEY

Dearest Rupda,

so sorry for Disha, did not realize you were so good
friends... Last night I had a white robe and a
farewell ceremony for her on my own.. and thanked her
soul for all the feelings and understandings I had
while listening to her songs... don't know what else
to do..

much love to you,
Ektal

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HOLLAND

Beloved Rupda,
Thank you for the opportunity to express our feelings. This is what we would like to share:

Beloved Disha,
The news of your death came like an explosion into my heart. An overwhelming feeling of Osho, love, sadness, joy, a strange mix of feelings. The realisation how quick one's life can be over. Untimely death or is existence really accurate? Does it matter? Am I doing everything possible to live my life to the fullest and deepest? Thank you for reminding me.
I have not known you that well and yet, what I have seen and felt from you through the years in Poona and Oregon, is a loving young spirit, full of life, living intensely, lovingly and so innocent. I remember you leading the Sufi dance in Poona 2, your openness, pureness and love flowing in all directions. I feel Osho's presence so strong now, you are in good hands wherever you are.
And living your life the way I saw you do it, you must have been well prepared for your sudden departure.
Peter knew you from the rebalancing training in Italy, he said: "She was such a wonderful, heartful person, what a light!"

We pray for you, for Nandan and Bhakta, you are all in our hearts.
Sadhya (Deva Nayano) and (Devam) Peter, Amsterdam, Holland
Reply to: sadhya@xs4all.nl

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BELGIUM

Beloveds Rupda, beloved friends,

the news about Disha is news that makes me still.. So few words and a need
to sit and meditate...
My heart is with Bhakta and Nandan especially..
Nandan I don't have your email but my heart is with you today and every time
I am reminded...
Way back in Pune 1 Disha was for me a remarkable smiling kid, someone to
notice..
Then I saw her again in Anubhava's musicgroups, we hadn't met yet but we
were singing and celebrating together, night after night.
Later we met and sang together many many times, for Osho, for all of us,
mostly with Milarepa, sometimes with Miten..
Then our lifes separated...
Such a sweet and beautiful soul..
I sang to you this morning...

'Your life was beautiful in every way'

All my love,

Narayani

Beloved rupda,
What a precious gift you are to me and to the sannyas community.
Thank you for your support and the grace you show me.
Mum

* Beloved Disha * how can I thank you enough for loving and caring for my daughter and with such unconditional love all these years! You opened My heart by loving her, you helped her see how strong and beautiful she is, just by being you, an extraordinary respectful being. You showed her how to be total, by being total yourself.... this is such a gift to me and to you Rupda. You were Rupda's *angel* when you where kids!!! I'll never forget, there was a kids meeting with all the kids in the commune, and Rupda was not feeling connected, as kids can be sometimes. Then she had the courage to speak up and share her fears and feelings and her insecurities... hearing this, you came towards her to hug her, hold her hand, lay next to her and then you told her that you would be her friend. A new kinship began that day...

Rupda, her loyalty to you was more then you can imagine. She always kept in touch with you, after the commune ended, while in India, writing you often, visiting you in San Francisco and even passing through Los Angeles to stay over for the night... supporting and comforting you in your first independent and lonely time in LA away from your sannyasin friends. Do you remember that? Well, I do, and I thank you *Disha* from the bottom of my heart for being the shining light that you were and always will be in our lives.... it is a blessing to have journeyed with you...

Disha My heart open* tears *
LOVE * light*

Thank you Ashira

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INDIA

What was the hurry, Deesh?!
But you always knew your way around (I don’t remember having ever seen you lost, about anything, under any situation, during the long years I have known you in the world of Osho ), and so I trust you now too in your decision.
I remember when you had just arrived in Pune as a small girl with your Mum, and you couldn’t wait – you soon started playing with small jobs. We were doing our first communal test to have everyone’s blood group identified, and you little soul were handling the registration desk all by yourself – so efficiently and so sweetly (You were only seven then)! That was my first meeting with you, by the side of where the bookshop is now. The sweetness that you showered on me, I can never forget. Only you could do that. That picture of you, that scene, has always remained etched in my heart and it has always remained available to my mental eye, to date.

I am also happy that only a year or so ago, you were here in Pune after some gap and we did get the opportunity to hear you sing your new songs, with Bhakta on the guitar, one evening in one of the variety shows. Love was showering on you from all around that evening.

We love you and we will forever love you…no one is gone anywhere, ever…

Yoga Pratap

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IRELAND

Beloved rupda,
I awoke this morning to a text from trinda telling me
of disha's passing.
So much sadness in me... Feels so precious to be a
part of this huge heart family around the globe, all
holding disha in our hearts.. I am blown out by all
the beautiful words, like crystals of pain and love
falling all around.. It reminds me how exquisitely
precious this life is, how deep and how fragile..
Disha's death is giving me this as I stand in Ireland
and watch the summer pass, so she is gone..
Disha, you are in my heart, I am so sad I never heard
you sing this time round.
Thank you rupda, for this beautiful farewell, the
photos are magical!1
With love and tears
Mallika

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INDIA

Our beloved Disha.... One wonders, why Disha, not Disha, not her...
I am still in shock, still unbelieving. I'm sure we all are.... And
my heart is with Bhakta and with Nandan... a loss for every one of us
but for them a different kind of loss....
No one so much loved, I'm guessing. Such a light, such a beauty... I
knew her when she was ten and used to walk in and out of Osho's house
with the sweet presence of a buddha. Or in the nineties in the Osho
Times office, dedicated and always cheerful behind her giant computer
screen.
Ah my dear, how it all passes, it all passes... Byebye, Disha, bye
bye. The earth will be a lesser place without you on it...

Savita

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AUSTRALIA

Thank you Rupda for connecting us all
in this way, my love to you.

Beloved Disha, your love and light
gave me courage and strength to go o
n 'path of love'. You lived what you shared, you are truth and love and i know you are on a beautiful journey, bless you my dear angel and pure
being, you will shine from above and within.You are already soo missed here!
My heart is with you.

Alexis-Pyari

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INDIA

Thank you for your love and caring to create this beautiful forum for all us to come together and share our hearts in mourning.

I am deeply touched to know of Disha‚s passing. She was such an inspiration to us all . A living example for me of Osho‚s words , „you will find me dissolved into my people. If you look for me when I am gone, look for me in my people. You will find me there.‰ How true of our Beloved Disha, who touched every life with her radiance and loving beauty.

My greatest sadness is that I never had the opportunity to tell her personally how much her very being, along with so many of the Poona Kids, has influenced my choice to create this Mini-Buddhafield here for destitute children.

I remember what a joy it was for me to work in number 70 in old Poona and hang out with the kids living there in their fantastic „Kid‚s House. It was then and there that the seeds for what we are creating here were sown.

Her passing comes as a reminder for us all how one single life lived in our Beloved Master‚s Grace can touch so many lives. Even in her death we are once again called from all the distant corners of this globe to come together in remembrance of the blessed times we shared together.

We will sing together with our 54 kids here tonight to her and send our love along with a healing prayer to each one of you out there.

Dwabha
Rishikesh India

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SPAIN

I am so gratefull to have known in my life someone like Disha,her smile and spirit will be always in my heart.she will be deeply missed....it is so sad.....on monday we are doing a singing evening in wiich we will send light for her journey...many people here will take part. we love you and thank you for shining always like the brightest star.

mouji

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INDIA - DISHA'S AYAH...

I wrote this out for Rani, Disha's former ayah in Riverside, Poona,
who has just heard about the news. I just typed it verbatim...

Disha... like this is very sad, I heard but I loved so much her, she
is a very best friend. She is very nice girl and I love her just like
I knew her for twenty years happened, I know her from Riverside,
there, with Puja and Abhiyana and Surmano. I love so much, that's
all.... because she's very nice woman, she love me and she had a
friend called Blackie Cat he was singer and music man and Disha, she
give me a small watch but is very nice and my family like it it so
much... she telling, Rani, this is the best for you and for your
family.
I saw her last only in the Out of Africa and she told me Rani, I am
singer, I give to you one singer copy for you. Eight days she came in
the Out of Africa, Dutch Rani also she is best friend, (I am working
with Disha also and Dutch Rani also in Out of Africa...)
Twenty years before because... this is very old kind of people. When
I got married she is telling, How is your husband? you like?, then I
told her he is also black, she tell me, Rani you are also getting
husband black? He is good, he is not drinking, Rani? I tell her no no
no, just at Christmas.
That's all, is very sad, I feel now, I;m thinking just now sitting
with my friend only, like Disha she was very good woman...
-- Rani
Ayah at Riverside, Koregaon Park, Poona

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UK

Oh my gosh what a shock!

I Guess we are all just so fragile....

Our thoughts are with Bhakta and Nandan....

Our 'Ohana' has taken a big hit , but we will never forget....

All of you take great care of yourselves

Loads of Love
Champak, Chetana, Pyar

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GERMANY

Beloved beautiful Disha,

I only met you a few times, but you always touched deep and fell in love with you right away. I'm happy that I met such a beautiful soul and I always keep your smile in my heart. Thank you for your light..... your love...... your courage..... your tears

In love

Rishi

(drummer + dj from germany)

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SANTA FE, USA

Dear Rupda,

Disha and Bhakta have been great friends
for a long time on the path.
We visited them twice from the US in their
beautiful secluded home in Sammasati- after
crossing the seven rivers.

Our hearts exploded and we wish Disha a
'bon yoyage' and Bhakta and Nandan support
in their healing. Disha is a precious gem
in the world of Osho, who we will miss.

Last night here in Santa fe we had a small but very
beautiful celebration in the house of Mushkan
and Nirodha with Dinesh playing and Disha's
song 'How Long' making her very present.

Lots of love and thanks to you Rupda and
Krishna for the web support.

from Santa Fe,
Bhikkhu and Waduda

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

Dear Rupda,

My heart goes out to you and all who knew and loved Disha, especially Nandan. Thanks for making photos of Disha available to the extended community of those touched by this sweet loving soul. As the mother of a murdered child (18 years years ago), I know the pain you feel now will eventually ease and the love you shared with Disha grow stronger with the years. 

May Disha's soul's journey be a light one and your pain deepen the love you give and receive from others. 

Homage to Disha

My mind plays catch
with memories of Disha
as I write about acquired brain injuries
for a medical journal
and make love to my beloved
who recalls Disha‚
elfin face and impish smile
if not her name.

Decades apart don‚
dilute the tenderness
of Disha‚s words and gestures
as she sat beside
in the ashram canteen
checking to see that only my pride
was wounded
not my soul
by my long-time lover
leaving my bed
for her mother‚
Was I all right?
Are you sure?
How could I not be
in the face of such grace,
a child‚s innocent wish
that all was right with the world
and pain short-lived?   

With much love to you all from Kirti and me,

- Satya (Bharti)

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GREEN BAY, USA

Beloved Rupda,

Thank you for providing this space for us.

Disha, you really saw me. In that seeing was acknowledgement, validation (sometimes necessary from the outside). Such "being seen" makes one feel real. That is quite a gift to give and you gave it freely to all.

I hardly knew you in the normal sense, we were not particularly close or intimate friends at all, but you were my friend and I loved you, and that was so easy as I felt so loved and seen by you. It was not a special situation for myself or only a few, not at all, but it was certainly special. It‚s what you did for everyone you encountered. You actually saw them and in that seeing you made them feel special and worthwhile. It was just who you were.

I'm all broken up today....in a beatiful kind of broken-wide-open space like the world has stopped for a wee bit, long and deep enough to remember what needs remembering.

Love,

Sw.Veet Mouni

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LOCATION UNKNOWN

I feel sad to hear this news of Disha. I knew her only from seeing, but was always touched by her beauty and something very lovely.
One time she asked me to play 'Lady in Red ' for her on my guitar. That was very sweet.
Love to Bhakta.
Maarten - Sadhu

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CHILE

Beloved Rups...
I can´t stop crying...sooo much love in our hearts...so many beautiful
memories of SUCH A LOVED OSHO´S ANGEL..........
I wanted to thank you for this amazing page you´ve made...you are a genious!!
Connecting us all in such a wake up call!!!

My beloved sweet Disha...
Thank you for being you...best friend, so full of love, joy, beauty,
wisdom...definitly Osho´s most loved angel....My heart is singing with
you...and always will be...there is soo many feelings and my words are
dissapearing...........
I will miss you...thank-you...sister....

Pavan.

Beloveds,
Nish called me today saying that in Disha's will she asked that I paint her coffin. As I am in India and can't be there to do it, I am sending some digital art I did for her on the day she died, to be included in the communal coffin decoration. Krish, can you please forward it to Rupda's site for Disha. Priya asked for the picture of the three of us.
Ash and I are  totally there with everyone in spirit. So much love - garimo

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WORDS OF DISHA...

How long

How long must I search, search inside for you and how long will I wait, wait here in love for you. It could be here and now, it could be lifetimes yet, all the barriers around my sight.

You said: Prepare the soil and god will do the rest, know you're worthy now to live in blissfulness. I¥d had to turn myself into a golden cup, so you'll come and fill me up.

How long must I wait
How long will it take
how long must I wait
how long, how long,

Sometimes when I'm not here, you just flood my heart,
then the moment's gone and it tares me apart. There must me more I can do to give myself to you. Please teach me what surrender is.

How long must I wait, how long will it take, how long will I wait, how long - how long

How long must you wait, Beloved, so patiently, call me to realize my own eternity. To disappear into you is the only way I know to express this endless gratitude.

How long must I wait, how long will it take, how long will I wait, how long, how long, Osho how long, how long, how long

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Hello Rupda, Thanks so much for doing this webside. Its beautiful what you have created. I have here a letter that I have written this morning. [click here] This letter might be a little matter of fact but it is intended to give information to people. I felt to do that and Nandan and Bhakta supported me in that as so many people are trying to fill in the gaps between the stories in what lead up to Disha’s deaths. I also included three pictures which were probably the last pictures that were taken off Disha. These photos were taken off Disha about three weeks ago....

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